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- Mar 11, 2022
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I also find Sufi mysticism incredibly beautiful and profound like you said. Conference of the Birds by Attar might be my favorite book, also Saadi, Rumi, Hafez work, and even Sufi mystics from other parts like the poetry of Kabir and Sheikh Farid from India. I also count Sikhism starting with Guru Nanak in the same spiritual realm. Sadly religious fundamentalism has ruined good part of the Muslim world although in part due to outside interventions/wars as well. If US didn't invade Iraq you could say there would be no Isis, if Russia didn't invade Afghanistan there would be no Al Qaida and taliban. One wonders how Muslim world would look if not for those outside actions.I love Islamic mystic traditions and still find the work of Hafez and Rumi, for example, quite profound and beautiful
I know a ton of Muslim women who like covering, even after moving to the West. I like my hijab and my long dresses. My friends freely choose to cover. Our bodies are private, which is a luxury in a culture obsessed with women's attractiveness. We put our intellect and personality front and center. Only those we deem worthy may see us uncovered. Beauty is a privilege that fades. What matters is who we are as people.Almost all women in Muslim countries are bullied. If they had a choice, I'm sure they wouldn't want to go out in an outfit that completely covers their body.
I am Shia Muslim. The biggest reason I haven't CTB is because I don't want to end my suffering in this dunya just to suffer for all eternity. I pray for death… but I'm also worried I'm not good enough yet. I need to be a better Muslim so I don't go to jahannam. In shaa Allah I die when Allah (swt) is pleased with me. I want to die a martyr… either saving someone else who wants to live or being murdered for refusing to denounce my beliefs. Either that or dying during hajj when my sins are cleansed.
I wish there was another option between jannah and jahannam. An option to just cease existing. No afterlife, just nothingness. I don't believe I am a good Muslim, but I don't think I'm bad enough to deserve to suffer forever. I simply want to stop being.
It's just so hard continuing to live. When my depression gets so bad, I drop to the floor and scream in agony for around 90 minutes each episode. It's awful. I don't want to do this anymore. Life is pain and suffering. I know Allah does not give burdens too big to bear, but sometimes those burdens (ex. starvation) end in death. I just want to die.
I know a ton of Muslim women who like covering, even after moving to the West. I like my hijab and my long dresses. My friends freely choose to cover. Our bodies are private, which is a luxury in a culture obsessed with women's attractiveness. We put our intellect and personality front and center. Only those we deem worthy may see us uncovered. Beauty is a privilege that fades. What matters is who we are as people.