@CandyK__ @springleaf @fourstars sorry guys missed the notifs for this thread, tysm for sharing your experiences and info with me! I really appreciate it
I have spoken with my doc before about depression and I'm on a waiting list for therapy, but I never got… diagnosed. I mean I'm 'depressed', no doubt about it, I've been getting progressively lower for a couple years, and recently I've been extremely low for just months on end. Hence currently being on this lovely ctb forum
but I haven't gone through any process with the doc about this?
I guess my question is, how does a 'diagnosis' work? I'm worried about asking for medication, cause I've heard of people being put on 'suicide watch' or family/police being notified, etc etc, so till now I've barely disclosed any of my true feelings to the doc. When he asked if I've ever considered hurting myself, I just flatly said no so I wouldn't attract any unwanted attention, but I guess that shunts me into the category of 'eh he'll be fine' and my only help was being put on a waiting list.
To get medication, do I need to disclose my true feelings to the doc? To go through an official diagnosis process or something? Will it result in any of my family/authorities/anyone else knowing the truth? I hate causing drama or fuss, I don't want people suddenly looking at me with the pity that only happy people can show towards sad people. I prefer to pretend everything is fine so all the other people can get on with their day and leave me to mine.
I've been in therapy for a few months and started taking medication all without an actual formal diagnosis. I am in a similar situation to you, as in I didn't tell the doctor (or my therapist) how bad my suicidal thoughts really are (because... anxiety) -- when my therapist wrote a recommendation for a psychiatric evaluation, she described me as only 'vaguely suicidal'. The psychiatrist asked if I have attempted suicide in the past (which I have not) and if I self-harm (which I do, but very seldom), and didn't ask me at all if I currently have any suicidal thoughts or plans -- HOWEVER, my therapist did before I first started seeing her (but at that time, I was doing much better, so I said no and it wasn't a lie).
After like an hour of a psychiatry appointment, the doctor actually wrote in the conclusion of my medical report that I have an anxiety disorder (which she didn't further specify) and an adjustment disorder, but she didn't even explain to me what that is, so they're not like proper diagnoses.
So, yes, you can get prescribed antidepressants without a formal diagnosis or disclosing your true mental state.
HOWEVER, you might be prescribed a lower dose than you really need -- but the doctor can increase it over time if you say you feel it's not enough for you,
BUT ALSO: My psychiatrist told me she doesn't prescribe medication to *very* unstable patients, by which she meant people who have recently experienced some sort of trauma or something like that, because antidepressants ARE going to mess with your brain chemistry, and so it's not always ideal to start taking them without previous treatments like therapy. Though that might not exactly be your case, it is something worth thinking about.
Also, as I've also mentioned, the first few weeks after you begin taking them, you might actually feel worse, which... might not be super helpful, and if you already are suicidal, I suppose it is important for the doctor to know that, so that for
AT LEAST the first few weeks, you are monitored by someone, like your close friends or family.
Also, I should probably mention that I live in Czechia (central Europe), so I guess it's possible in your country it might be a bit different??
Anyway, keep in mind I'm not a professional and I'm just sharing my personal experience and what I've heard. I hope you get the help you need without much discomfort : )