About a month or two ago i stopped taking my SSRI's cold turkey cause I'm super paranoid about trusting doctors or any such high point of authority. Didn't wanna be sedated that way. Anyway, the first 2-3 days off were all good. The week after that, however, was HELL. Felt sick to my stomach with a headache every morning, racing thoughts all day, feeling hot on and off, and quite possibly the worst suicidal ideations I've had EVER. The entire week I wanted nothing more than to kill myself. Easily irritable and couldn't stand being spoken to by my friends or anyone. Extremely violent and grotesque intrusive thoughts (which are a regular for me, but here they were near constant and I could feel the mental barricade of "hey, don't do this" slipping and nearly turning into action.) Now, this sounds bad, and it was, but GOD the spiritual freedom that comes from not being drugged made it all worth it. Never again. Quit seeing my therapist and will never take prescriptions for mental problems again. I hope your off period is more graceful than mine.
I'm so sorry to hear about your experience :( I've been super worried that I'd face something similar, but I think I've been lucky so far. I will say though, I've also been thinking about quitting therapy. It definitely helped at first but it's starting to feel like more of a useless chore and I'm questioning whether my therapist is acting as more of a yes-man than a mental health professional
i remember you! you're hot! he won't respond to this because he knows i'm not that hot, but for anyone else reading, he's sex-machine fine, just fyi. but he has perceptual issues so if he writes somewhere he's not, it's because of the perceptual stuff... he's actually hot. sorry to be blunt, but just for context
Hey faded, of course I'll respond hahah… I can't say you're not that hot because I literally never even saw what you look like
I do wanna say sorry for how we stopped talking/how I left things though. As you can tell, I have .. issues .. which I've been working through with my therapist and I've come to realize that I've been kind of an anti-social dick to a lot of people in my life. Working to change that
Thanks for the compliment lol. As much as I hate myself and don't want to believe it, I appreciate the kind words nonetheless
interesting, how were you mentally on it? did you feel numb/dumbed down?
also these were withdrawal symptoms for anti-depressants, were you taking things for attention/focus? think withdrawals from those might not be as bad..?
I didn't feel any changes for the longest time but my boss and a coworker were aware of when I started it and they said I seemed to be less temperamental/hot-headed. After about two months I realized I didn't really care about things as much and it took a lot more to evoke a reaction out of me, positive or negative but especially negative. There were a few times I could tell that if I was unmedicated I'd be going through a bad depressive episode but instead everything was just sort of mundane and bland.
It depends on what you mean by "for focus." I don't know if it's intended to increase focus, but my prescriber told me they tend to use one of the anti depressants off label for ADHD symptoms as it can provide energy. Might be doxxing myself here a bit but I was on antidepressants for three months on the schedule of:
Month 1:
Fluoxetine 10mg, once a day
Bupropion 150mg, once a day
Month 2:
Fluoxetine 20mg, once a day
Bupropion 300mg, once a day
Month 3:
Fluoxetine 40mg, once a day
Bupropion 300mg, once a day
PS. Thank you for the attention on this thread everyone. Truly didn't expect it, mwah
:)
