Venting Another year wasted.

[zilk]

New Year's is just a stupid reminder that another year is gone, and I did nothing with it. Everyone's out there cheering, counting down, pretending this is some magical reset button, but all I can think about is how I wasted the last 365 days. It's not like I didn't have plans—I did. I just didn't follow through. And now, I'm stuck looking back on all the time I'll never get back.


Regardless of where you are, I hope you all have a truly wonderful New Year filled with joy and new opportunities.

 

[skyflame]

Please don't be hard on yourself, you got through this year and that is enough!

 

[H0110W]

Define "wasted".
I tried so many things this year with varying degrees of success. I learned a lot, tried new hobbies, meet people, the usual thing. I hated every second of it at worst, and got bored quickly at best. Nothing has given me any joy. So my year wasn't technically wasted, but here I am, I haven't made any progress in getting out of my crippling depression, in fact I feel worse than I felt last year or the year before. Sorry for the blackpill but not "wasting" your year will probably not do much good, if anything it will make you much more hopeless when you have run out of things to try to improve your worthless existence.

The bottle of SN I'm treasuring under my bed keeps looking more and more like it's the only way out.

 

[John_Galt]

Yeah, New years ball drop feels more like an ominous surprise present of misery for what is to come for the year- Not to be too bleak, I suppose after 2020 it doesn't feel the same, Never mind the day's going by like mad, It hard to hit deadlines.

I feel your struggle