futurebuscatcher
Cat Connoisseur
- Sep 15, 2024
- 101
Happy holidays everyone,
I finally have a break from my life and took some time today to mess with my noose and try it out.
This isn't the big live post I promised (it will come soon hopefully) but it's finally coming together!! I messed with the rope around my neck and found the ideal position for where it'll go around my neck. There's still some rope burn despite the minimal amount of pressure I put, I can still feel the feeling of being choked even now as I type this.
The anchor seems to be good so far, I definitely can't really do a proper suspension where I am but it's possible I can do it kneeling into a bow of some sort. There's a good amount of technique used but it's also surprisingly easy to get the choke down. I may keep going to see how much it may take to bruise but that may be a dumb idea.
Its not much but I just wanted to share my next little step. I'm proud of myself. I think by doing this I'm working up the nerve and getting giddy over the idea of suicide now. Glad I can work myself into a hysterical state— hope it works in my favor.
I'm still gonna do some minor choking– I'm not properly tied to anything so I wont even accidentally kill myself (unfortunately), still this is great. I hope I can kill myself soon. The next step is to get some rags of some sort to put in the noose to really choke.
Thanks for reading this spontaneous post everyone. Happy holidays once again
I finally have a break from my life and took some time today to mess with my noose and try it out.
This isn't the big live post I promised (it will come soon hopefully) but it's finally coming together!! I messed with the rope around my neck and found the ideal position for where it'll go around my neck. There's still some rope burn despite the minimal amount of pressure I put, I can still feel the feeling of being choked even now as I type this.
The anchor seems to be good so far, I definitely can't really do a proper suspension where I am but it's possible I can do it kneeling into a bow of some sort. There's a good amount of technique used but it's also surprisingly easy to get the choke down. I may keep going to see how much it may take to bruise but that may be a dumb idea.
Its not much but I just wanted to share my next little step. I'm proud of myself. I think by doing this I'm working up the nerve and getting giddy over the idea of suicide now. Glad I can work myself into a hysterical state— hope it works in my favor.
I'm still gonna do some minor choking– I'm not properly tied to anything so I wont even accidentally kill myself (unfortunately), still this is great. I hope I can kill myself soon. The next step is to get some rags of some sort to put in the noose to really choke.
Thanks for reading this spontaneous post everyone. Happy holidays once again
