Hi all, it has been a long time since my last post and I just felt like sharing my emotions with those willing to listen.
It's been an eventful few months in my life, however things are starting to look a lot more positive, I got a new job, passed my original exams. I realised that my past relationship was extremely unhealthy as she caused me extreme mental stress and sort of sexually assaulted me to some degree as she pressured me into sex which I didn't properly consider at the time because I was in an unhappy state. I was able to understand this through my friends and also my new partner who has shown me a proper relationship with natural boundaries and she allows me to take my time with things. She is a wonderful human being and doesn't know about my postings on here yet knows I used to want to cbt last year. However I also want to thank everyone on here on the forums who was supportive of me through some extremely hard times in my life and gave me advice that had real meaning to me without shaming, without them I don't know if I could have kept going. I spoke to a friend about my issues who helped listen and give advice, however the best advice I was given on here was to keep going and live, because after all you only live once (in my beliefs at least).
However, despite all this I still struggle a bit mentally when I am alone maybe a few times a week I feel deflated and just wish I could disappear from the world, like I have no energy to live. Although it isn't as bad as originally because I still have many days where I feel amazing now. The feeling still remains, is it normal to feel this way still, is there any way of getting rid of it?
Anything would be greatly appreciated, thank you.
It's been an eventful few months in my life, however things are starting to look a lot more positive, I got a new job, passed my original exams. I realised that my past relationship was extremely unhealthy as she caused me extreme mental stress and sort of sexually assaulted me to some degree as she pressured me into sex which I didn't properly consider at the time because I was in an unhappy state. I was able to understand this through my friends and also my new partner who has shown me a proper relationship with natural boundaries and she allows me to take my time with things. She is a wonderful human being and doesn't know about my postings on here yet knows I used to want to cbt last year. However I also want to thank everyone on here on the forums who was supportive of me through some extremely hard times in my life and gave me advice that had real meaning to me without shaming, without them I don't know if I could have kept going. I spoke to a friend about my issues who helped listen and give advice, however the best advice I was given on here was to keep going and live, because after all you only live once (in my beliefs at least).
However, despite all this I still struggle a bit mentally when I am alone maybe a few times a week I feel deflated and just wish I could disappear from the world, like I have no energy to live. Although it isn't as bad as originally because I still have many days where I feel amazing now. The feeling still remains, is it normal to feel this way still, is there any way of getting rid of it?
Anything would be greatly appreciated, thank you.
