Hollowillow
The only place that allows negative feelings.
- Aug 7, 2022
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What do I do wrong
Sayin belt, slip knot, Door handle, sat on the floor, tried to lie down lower with my back against the door
i could breathe
the first 2 attemps i stopped when i felt about to sleep. This attempt was longer but felt bored. Didn't pull hard enough?
what did i do wrong?
what else can i do. Put the rope higher on the door hinge? The pole for my shower curtain? The pole in my bathrobe seems to bend.
robin williams was sitting on a chair, how, where did he tie the belt?
i don't even know where to start with n or sn...
my landlord met me to tell me for 1h that he doesn't care that i suffer, my doctor will never convince him. He'll never spend 5 minutes to send a chemical cleaner disaster specialist, and he'll forbid him to inspect anything else than the wet wood if a repair man comes... That I'm on my own and must be independent. That if it was this bad his ignorant janitor would have noticed it, and the other guy eould have detected it from the other room without needing to check.
the hardware store confirmed that the paint and cement used are defective and don't belong in a bathroom. So maybe I react to that more than the accident i did.
i can't, as an invalid, find & hire a specialist. When the only one in laval works for my landlord and demand their permission
The repair guy tells me the landlord must call. The landlord tells me the repair guy must call. I must do their job and call him.
fuck it, a rope is calling me
My social worker just watched me get lynched without saying that it's their respinsibility to call their repair man and send a true specialist
They sent a janitor twice for an electric problem when i had no heat. They shamed & threatened me then too.
I had enough i want death!
all social services cancelled in me. Please help me
The suicide hotline to me to take deep breath. They have zero knowledge of organizations that can help defend housing rights, shelters for abused women or homeless. It's just a manipulation to make you say things to justify sending the cops.
She insisted to hear my plan. I said no, i call for solutions to AVOID thinking of my plans. She harassed me. So I told her how I'd gang in detail, the risks, hiw i think of a bridge, a train, tying my neck on the track. Gruesome details. She said enough. Stupid bitch. Did nothing. Adked if I was safe (from myself) I told her the only thing making me feel safe in this abusive world is the idea to die and be free.
Useless. Please help me.
Sayin belt, slip knot, Door handle, sat on the floor, tried to lie down lower with my back against the door
i could breathe
the first 2 attemps i stopped when i felt about to sleep. This attempt was longer but felt bored. Didn't pull hard enough?
what did i do wrong?
what else can i do. Put the rope higher on the door hinge? The pole for my shower curtain? The pole in my bathrobe seems to bend.
robin williams was sitting on a chair, how, where did he tie the belt?
i don't even know where to start with n or sn...
my landlord met me to tell me for 1h that he doesn't care that i suffer, my doctor will never convince him. He'll never spend 5 minutes to send a chemical cleaner disaster specialist, and he'll forbid him to inspect anything else than the wet wood if a repair man comes... That I'm on my own and must be independent. That if it was this bad his ignorant janitor would have noticed it, and the other guy eould have detected it from the other room without needing to check.
the hardware store confirmed that the paint and cement used are defective and don't belong in a bathroom. So maybe I react to that more than the accident i did.
i can't, as an invalid, find & hire a specialist. When the only one in laval works for my landlord and demand their permission
The repair guy tells me the landlord must call. The landlord tells me the repair guy must call. I must do their job and call him.
fuck it, a rope is calling me
My social worker just watched me get lynched without saying that it's their respinsibility to call their repair man and send a true specialist
They sent a janitor twice for an electric problem when i had no heat. They shamed & threatened me then too.
I had enough i want death!
all social services cancelled in me. Please help me
The suicide hotline to me to take deep breath. They have zero knowledge of organizations that can help defend housing rights, shelters for abused women or homeless. It's just a manipulation to make you say things to justify sending the cops.
She insisted to hear my plan. I said no, i call for solutions to AVOID thinking of my plans. She harassed me. So I told her how I'd gang in detail, the risks, hiw i think of a bridge, a train, tying my neck on the track. Gruesome details. She said enough. Stupid bitch. Did nothing. Adked if I was safe (from myself) I told her the only thing making me feel safe in this abusive world is the idea to die and be free.
Useless. Please help me.
He offered friendship because he saw that I like anime. It's not derailing a thread it's showing interest in the poster! I put the word anime in my title like bait, and when a fish finally bite you make him delete his post in shame and run away.
