Celerity
shape without form, shade without colour
- Jan 24, 2021
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I know I should want my last moments on Earth to be peaceful. I know I'm being stupid.
That said, I really want the anhedonia to get a move on already and get back here. I want to be in the perfect state of mind to CTB, and my old friend will do the trick.
Every momentary pleasure or ounce of hope I feel keeps me tethered to this earth and in anguish about all I don't have.
I just want to be numb. I don't want to feel anything but what is necessary to keep me basically alive until I'm prepared to CTB.
That said, I really want the anhedonia to get a move on already and get back here. I want to be in the perfect state of mind to CTB, and my old friend will do the trick.
Every momentary pleasure or ounce of hope I feel keeps me tethered to this earth and in anguish about all I don't have.
I just want to be numb. I don't want to feel anything but what is necessary to keep me basically alive until I'm prepared to CTB.