Emily_Numb
Wizard
- Jan 14, 2020
- 657
I've been trying to get my life back on track for the past year. I was free from all medications and then just had a bit of a breakdown last September and this entire year has been spent trying to drag myself out of it.
I'm back on a couple of medications along with monthly Ketamine infusions but I just can't seem to find that enjoyment in life anymore. I have absolutely zero motivation to do anything, I hate leaving the house, everything just feels like an exhausting chore. If I could just lay in bed and sleep all day, I would.
I've been here before, but have always managed to come back out the other side. I've spent thousands on therapy and medications over the years, but I keep ending up back here. This has gone on for 20 years and I'm tired of it.
This Anhedonia, emotional flatlining, this feeling of nothingness, no joy in anything makes me wonder what's the fucking point. I may as well be dead.
Has anyone managed to shake that feeling for any longer than a few days? It's like this big black cloud that follows me around. I can try to outrun it, but it always finds me.
I'm back on a couple of medications along with monthly Ketamine infusions but I just can't seem to find that enjoyment in life anymore. I have absolutely zero motivation to do anything, I hate leaving the house, everything just feels like an exhausting chore. If I could just lay in bed and sleep all day, I would.
I've been here before, but have always managed to come back out the other side. I've spent thousands on therapy and medications over the years, but I keep ending up back here. This has gone on for 20 years and I'm tired of it.
This Anhedonia, emotional flatlining, this feeling of nothingness, no joy in anything makes me wonder what's the fucking point. I may as well be dead.
Has anyone managed to shake that feeling for any longer than a few days? It's like this big black cloud that follows me around. I can try to outrun it, but it always finds me.
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