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I've been feeling really angry lately, the kind of wanting to punch the walls like that. I feel like breaking a mirror, or breaking my hand by punching the wall. I can't deal with my thoughts, they are disturbing me.
 
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Screaming into pillows helps :) so do runs and punching pillows :)

A therapist suggested throwing ice in a bathtub- no mess, ice just melts, and the loud noise can help release anger
In other milder moments, art, dance, and music can help also

Also, I feel you <3 I'm not an aggressive person. I'm more of a let me bake for you type of person but really want to punch the mirror haha
 
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I used to feel like that and buying a punchbag really helped me! I highly recommend it.
 
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Tear up a roll of toilet paper.
 
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Stab a notebook with a pencil?
I am currently doped with rivotril, so I am very calm. But it's a great tip, I'll do it in my next anger
 
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I am currently doped with rivotril, so I am very calm. But it's a great tip, I'll do it in my next anger
hehe yes <3 good :)
 
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I've been feeling really angry lately, the kind of wanting to punch the walls like that. I feel like breaking a mirror, or breaking my hand by punching the wall. I can't deal with my thoughts, they are disturbing me.
So sorry you're feeling like this @SadGirl . My daughter had a psychotic episode and punched some walls just recently. It was quite out of character for her, as she'd never done that before. I was shocked and scared of what she was capable of.
 
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So sorry you're feeling like this @SadGirl . My daughter had a psychotic episode and punched some walls just recently. It was quite out of character for her, as she'd never done that before. I was shocked and scared of what she was capable of.
I've seen you around a bit Sophia. Didn't realize you had to deal with that.

Hugs.
 
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Ohmygod
 
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I feel anger a lot, often for no reason though, its horrid, I have tried so many techniques and the only one that helps me I am not saying here, No advice just want to say I have sympathy!
 
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I can relate, man. I hate it. Usually I can just reason it out and chill out, unless I'm angry at myself - then it's a whole other story.

Lately it's been getting really bad. There are a couple things that take the edge off, but it just keeps coming back again and again. I think I'm just super overwhelmed lmao. But I feel like an immature bitch, a monster.
 
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Emotional suppression over the years can lead to angry outbursts or a simple reason can trigger it. I had that issue the other night where I just felt angry for no reason and went from 0 to 10 on the suicidal intent meter. Like I want to break shit, murder people, and destroy the world type anger. Scary at times.
 
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I'm so sorry you're in such a bad mood. Sometimes I feel hatred toward everyone and I can't do anything about it. When I look outside through the window I want to hurt every stranger passing by. Just because they are happy and I'm not. Why did I deserve to be such a loser? Why did they deserve to be happy? Why is it so unfair that someone has everything and the other one has nothing?
 
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Emotional suppression over the years can lead to angry outbursts or a simple reason can trigger it. I had that issue the other night where I just felt angry for no reason and went from 0 to 10 on the suicidal intent meter. Like I want to break shit, murder people, and destroy the world type anger. Scary at times.
I feel like this a lot.
 
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I feel like a toddler having a tantrum when I lose it :pfff: :pfff:
It feels like we were damaged from birth or didn't get our emotional needs met when we were children. People then wonder why we're all so fucked up.
 
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It feels like we were damaged from birth or didn't get our emotional needs met when we were children. People then wonder why we're all so fucked up.

I know mine never were met, but even so! but yea,
 
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It feels like we were damaged from birth or didn't get our emotional needs met when we were children. People then wonder why we're all so fucked up.
Ah, yes. My parents were unable to meet my emotional needs. They reacted (and still do) to my emotions with anger, irritability, inpatience. Any strong emotion, especially anger, makes me feel like I'm just some obnoxious piece of shit.
I feel like a toddler having a tantrum when I lose it :pfff: :pfff:
I hate being angry because I feel like an adolescent, and a huge hypocrite. I think holding onto anger is a waste of energy and time. Being unable to make it stop feels like I'm doing something morally wrong. God, the past few weeks have been such a nightmare. Especially the last few days...

Edit: sorry @Symbiote I posted without finishing my response to your post.
 
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Emotional suppression over the years can lead to angry outbursts or a simple reason can trigger it. I had that issue the other night where I just felt angry for no reason and went from 0 to 10 on the suicidal intent meter. Like I want to break shit, murder people, and destroy the world type anger. Scary at times.
I feel you. Trauma can do this too <3 no shortage of that around here haha
It feels like we were damaged from birth or didn't get our emotional needs met when we were children. People then wonder why we're all so fucked up.
Early years do shape people and set a foundation- then we do reinforce those patters through adulthood. Having a shitty deck of cards to start with definitely sucks. I do like to remember that our brains are plastic and can change. The forces that shaped us continue to and so we can shaped in another way as well. I know it takes work and a supportive environment and, sometimes, there are too many barriers. But physiologically neurologically- our brain CAN and does change/heal/grow/improve.
 
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I can relate to a lot of this. I don't know what to do with it. It feels like a teenager that wants to murder the whole entire world. It doesn't want to be placated. It doesn't want to go away. It doesn't want to be ignored. It doesn't want to be treated like a problem to be solved. It just wants to exist, I guess. I always end up hitting things, including walls, furniture, pillows, and myself.
 
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Listening to this helps somewhat:


limp bizkit hehe :) reminds of dropping cookies accidentally in milk when I get overconfident and dip them too long :p perfect track for what it makes me feel :p
 
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I feel like this a lot.
I do too, everyday actually, l've been using a lot of CBD OIL(4800mg/50ml bottle) to try and keep myself calm and l bought a heavy bag and sparring gloves to get the rage out of myself but even after a 30 minute session with the heavy bag l'm knacked and calmer for 5 minutes then it starts building up again! it's a living hell.
 
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