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“Leaving this world is not as scary as it sounds.”
- Mar 3, 2019
- 248
I believe the last time I made a post here was when I took a bunch of DXM in desperation; that didn't do much. Since then, things have gotten both better and worse in different ways.
I took a lower dose of DXM a second time and, unlike the first, this had a pronounced effect the immediate effects wore off, I was unable to sleep for a couple days. I was paranoid and had racing thoughts at times. My perception of time seemed altered. After a few days, I seemed to be back to normal, but better than usual. I actually felt alive for the first time in a while; I was genuinely enjoying being alive. I had some energy and motivatione.
After feeling really solid for about a week, the effect just kinda wore off. I've started to feel progressively more shitty since then. I'm starting to have suicidal thoughts again. I'm
convinced that the DXM is what caused me to feel better, though the few people I've told about have urged me not to take it again. I don't really know what to do. I can't afford ketamine treatment. I do have one reason to stay alive for the time being. I got contacted as a match for bone marrow. Assuming that they determine that I'm the best candidate for donation, I'd like to go through with it, so I'll off myself after that's done.
I took a lower dose of DXM a second time and, unlike the first, this had a pronounced effect the immediate effects wore off, I was unable to sleep for a couple days. I was paranoid and had racing thoughts at times. My perception of time seemed altered. After a few days, I seemed to be back to normal, but better than usual. I actually felt alive for the first time in a while; I was genuinely enjoying being alive. I had some energy and motivatione.
After feeling really solid for about a week, the effect just kinda wore off. I've started to feel progressively more shitty since then. I'm starting to have suicidal thoughts again. I'm
convinced that the DXM is what caused me to feel better, though the few people I've told about have urged me not to take it again. I don't really know what to do. I can't afford ketamine treatment. I do have one reason to stay alive for the time being. I got contacted as a match for bone marrow. Assuming that they determine that I'm the best candidate for donation, I'd like to go through with it, so I'll off myself after that's done.
