So I'm sorry if these random thoughts of mine aren't "appropriate" or are bothering people, but I've always tried to make light of everything and to be honest, choosing to CTB has given me a lot of material. Having said that, has anyone else who's chosen to CTB find themselves making jokes about it to themselves? For example, I just found a hole in my sock. The first thing my mind says is "A hole in my sock?! THAT'S IT. I'M KILLING MYSELF". Am I weird..?
GoodPersonEffed
Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
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That's hilarious.
Humor provides protection. It keeps the darkness at bay. Life is absurd and tragically funny. I think it's a sign of resilience to find humor in what would destroy our spirits.
My father was a death investigator who also has very quick reflexes. Once at a hockey game, he caught a speeding puck. He labeled it as evidence of attempted murder and displayed it on his desk.
You can imagine the hilarious dinner table conversations I grew up with. I was seven when he began his training and started observing autopsies. One night at dinner, I asked if he'd seen any op-topsies that day. You know, like an operation. This, while other kids were asking their dads if they'd built cabinets or made a big sale.
So no, I personally don't find you weird at all.
Check out the Off Topic discussions for lots of suicide humor. You're in good company here.
Humor provides protection. It keeps the darkness at bay. Life is absurd and tragically funny. I think it's a sign of resilience to find humor in what would destroy our spirits.
My father was a death investigator who also has very quick reflexes. Once at a hockey game, he caught a speeding puck. He labeled it as evidence of attempted murder and displayed it on his desk.
You can imagine the hilarious dinner table conversations I grew up with. I was seven when he began his training and started observing autopsies. One night at dinner, I asked if he'd seen any op-topsies that day. You know, like an operation. This, while other kids were asking their dads if they'd built cabinets or made a big sale.
So no, I personally don't find you weird at all.
Check out the Off Topic discussions for lots of suicide humor. You're in good company here.
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avoid_slow_death
Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
- Feb 4, 2020
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Nah. I have had a pitch black sense of humor for over 30 years now. I often hear the phrase, "What the f*** is wrong with you?!?" because of it.
There is nothing weird about it at all...you have had it; the tiniest thing, no matter how seemingly insignificant, can make one say "I have had it". I know, I have been there—-my house is a mess, I have had it; i can't find my Sex Pistols cd, I have had it; the paint is peeled off my bedroom ceiling, I have had it; had it had it had it!
GoodPersonEffed
Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
- Jan 11, 2020
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I am embarrassed. I mistook you for the OP. Edited out my original comment here. Sorry, all! Sheesh, this is my second apology today. Sorry @avoid_slow_death!!!! Slinking off the thread now....
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avoid_slow_death
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Um, I am not the OP. I was answering the OP's question and citing my sense of humor as an example.
GoodPersonEffed
Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
- Jan 11, 2020
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I don't believe in hexes, but man there is a lot of confusion going on in this thread!
THAT'S IT. I'M KILLING MYSELF.
THAT'S IT. I'M KILLING MYSELF.
avoid_slow_death
Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
- Feb 4, 2020
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Bad idea. For both of us. Likely we would do something harmless instead as we both seem to be mentally dazed at the monent!
GoodPersonEffed
Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
- Jan 11, 2020
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Yeah I drank Alka Seltzer instead and thought, What's with all this fizzing? And why do I feel so damn good?? Maybe SN is peaceful after all!
Edit: *burp*
Yes, it would appear to be the case...feel like I am riding the pony express in slow-mo..inordinately difficult to post and receive.I don't believe in hexes, but man there is a lot of confusion going on in this thread!
THAT'S IT. I'M KILLING MYSELF.
Why feel embarrassed? Moreover, why slink?
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avoid_slow_death
Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
- Feb 4, 2020
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Thanks. This thread provided some temporary (and much needed) levity for me.
PS THIS thread is sooo confusing! That's it! Time to CTB!
PS THIS thread is sooo confusing! That's it! Time to CTB!
Hey GoodPersonEffed, I think you just found your CTB partner
I used to work with journalists. You wouldn't believe some of the dark humour they came out with. I had to carefully modulate my behaviour when out of work so as not to offend people.
Throwmyselfaway
Not gone yet but soon
- Jan 14, 2020
- 798
I have a very dark since of humor. When we flew my grandfathers ashes back after the funeral, he got the window seat on the plane
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
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I also have a dark sense of humor n often try to find humor in some of the most inappropriate situations (working on that),but it helps me cope so whatever...my grandaunt had her foot amputated due to diabetes n I once took her to get a pedicure at a salon. the owner said it costs $20..I asked if she could pay$10 since they were only doing ONE foot..Look, it took them HALF the amount of time so y pay full price??? I think my aunt is STILL in her grave laughing ..what's even more sad is I was very serious...whatever
..what's even more sad is I was very serious...whatever
avoid_slow_death
Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
- Feb 4, 2020
- 1,235
Unless you are actively trying to harm people with petty or no reason, you should NEVER apologize for who you are.I also have a dark sense of humor n often try to find humor in some of the most inappropriate situations (working on that),but it helps me cope so whatever...my grandaunt had her foot amputated due to diabetes n I once took her to get a pedicure at a salon. the owner said it costs $20..I asked if she could pay$10 since they were only doing ONE foot..Look, it took them HALF the amount of time so y pay full price??? I think my aunt is STILL in her grave laughing
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
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itsmeagain
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- Jan 28, 2020
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I don't think you're weird as you can tell by most people on this site. There's one comedian that supposedly copes with his suicidal thoughts and poor mental health by... being a comedian. He made a song about this kind of thing (roughly), and it's pretty funny. My favorite quote to get you interested would be:
"I've been telling you terribly sad things this entire time and you haven't been sad, you've been happy, no, you've been laughing; that's it, laughter is the key to everything, it's how to solve all the problems in the world! [...] The world isn't sad, the world is funny! I'm a socioooooooopaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaath!"
You are NOT weird; sadly, you are part of the majority. This flacid, decadent society would make anyone ctb.
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