Zhontafly

Zhontafly

Student
Jul 16, 2020
182
My philosophy is this: My family are my friends and my friends are also family.

Maybe that will help you in your search for true friends and meaningful relationships.
 
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bornfree

Student
May 10, 2020
158
My suicidal ideation is not the result of a brain defect / mental illness / or anything else to that matter - I simply have no desire to continue with life on earth, my existence is neither happy or sad. I strongly oppose those that are keen to pigeon hole my desire to no-longer exist as mental illness. I have achieved all I have ever wanted to achieve at the grand old age of 50, I am not depressed, I have my affairs in good order, I am not running or try to escape problems or emotionally weighty current or past events...I merely no-longer wish to exist, my time on earth is at an end.
sorry. That's what i meant. I don't see mental illness. Pain. Emptiness. Hopelessness. Lack of pleasure. Torment. Torture. There's so many words that describe what's worse than death and worth dying to escape.
 
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demuic

demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
1,383
Everyone should be able to have control over their own life.
 
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ThrownAwayTom

ThrownAwayTom

Experienced
Oct 3, 2020
276
I'm 10 years older than you and I have to say some parts of my 20s were a lot happier than my late teens, because I chose to just say fuck it and indulge in what I wanted to do. But that faded a while ago so it's all shit eventually I guess!
 
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Gnip

Gnip

Bill the Cat
Oct 10, 2020
621
At age 12, Katelyn Nicole Davis was definitely old enough to give up. These ideas are not themselves subject to arbitrary modern legal designations of ages of consent.

The historical Juliet Capulet is also supposed to have killed herself in Verona Italy at age 12 in 1303.
 
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Gnip

Gnip

Bill the Cat
Oct 10, 2020
621
I think you're definitely too young but people would also say I'm too young as well (mid 30s).

When I was 19 I was an unassuming guitar player from a remote northern Canadian town with nothing going on.

Throughout my 20s I became a community leader, businessman, lived in so many countries, had beautiful girlfriends, did a lot of really amazing things and met a ton of people all over the world.

You CAN do things and you CAN succeed. You're going to learn a lot and the possibilities are endless. I'd say give life a chance and wait til ur midlife to evaluate cuz that's when things get really dark lol.

In Katie's case though, she and her toddler half siblings had been sexually assaulted, and she may well have been facing rape and imposed pregnancy in the next year. (For all we know, she actually was pregnant at the time she hung herself.) For females, the dynamic can sometimes be different than it is for males.

Heroically, her dramatic live streamed hanging shown a light on her family, ultimately leading to her narcissistic prostitute addict mother getting busted for drugs and her remaining two children getting rescued from her.
 
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Lordsudbury

Specialist
Jul 26, 2020
306
In Katie's case though, she and her toddler half siblings had been sexually assaulted, and she may well have been facing rape and imposed pregnancy in the next year. (For all we know, she actually was pregnant at the time she hung herself.) For females, the dynamic can sometimes be different than it is for males.

Heroically, her dramatic live streamed hanging shown a light on her family, ultimately leading to her narcissistic prostitute addict mother getting busted for drugs and her remaining two children getting rescued from her.
Sorry I deleted my post, I didn't read the thread properly.
 
Nymph

Nymph

he/him
Jul 15, 2020
2,565
I'm 18 so I'd say yeah, I don't really think there's an age to giving up, it's when you just realize that the world is shit and give up-the age doesn't matter. Of course people will tell you to wait and see it something good happens but maybe it never will and you just end up miserable like all the people here that are older.
 
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Deleted member 17949

Visionary
May 9, 2020
2,238
Other people don't really get to have a meaningful opinion on this. People can tell you whether or not they would respond the way you are responding in your situation, and they can suggest alternative actions you can take which you may be interested in, but there is no 'old enough' since wanting to die is like any other desire and people can't tell you that your feelings are incorrect.

I am 18 and I'm pretty sure I should have killed myself at 16 tbh. Some people might whine about brain development and life experience but fuck it, if you want something you want it. We experience time in a linear fashion as humans, we don't get to feel the whole past and future at once and make decisions using our whole lives in the thought process. Ultimately what you do at a moment is going to depend on what you want at that moment, and if you want to die that's okay.
 
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Amumu

Amumu

Ctb - temporary solution for a permanent problem
Aug 29, 2020
2,624
So I'll write about my personal experience here.
I had a friend in high school who was bipolar, he was completely suicidal.
He was also psychotic and told me several times he was going to do it.

Six years later, the guy has a girlfriend who loves him, has a job and is rather happy
- while I'm completely miserable.
 
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whywere

Visionary
Jun 26, 2020
2,889
HELLO! Well that is a great question! My view point only and PLEASE lets everyone be respectful of others, I am 64 years young, and my wish for you is for you to be on a beautiful beach, warm sun, cold drink in hand and experience people. You have alot of time to think things over and at 19, heavens you are just starting out. i love and care for you and I have never met you, now think about it as you move through time. Take care and remember that you have a global family here. Walter
Now@DoNotLet2, you are BEAUTIFUL to me! You are a very attractive and young. I am so sorry about the abuse. My "dad" used me as a punching bag. My heart breaks for you on that aspect. NO ONE EVER deserves anything but love, kindness and hope. Please try and remember that you have ALL of US, your global family that cares and loves you. All the most beautiful sunrises and sunsets to you!!! Walter :heart::hug:
 
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k75

k75

L'appel du Vide
Jun 27, 2019
2,546
You're really the only one who can answer that. But I think if you're asking this, you're unsure, and you need to be 1,000% sure about this. Suicide isn't an emergency. Death will always be an option, but you can't ever change your mind and come back to life.

My opinion is you should give life more of a shot first. At 19, it's only really just started, and it's not magically easy. I don't doubt you're hurting, but I think it's too early to tell if things aren't going to get better. Friends and relationships aren't impossible, but they do take work. You're finally old enough to really be in control and do what you want with your life. I think you might as well try it out.
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,622
Damn. I'm 34 and I ask myself that same question but I think the answer to that is a resounding yes. I'm not here to tell you what to do but I know at your age things could have gone differently but that's me
 
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Kramer

Kramer

Nervous wreck
Oct 27, 2020
1,398
I was suicidal at your age but I'm glad I didn't do it then. Life has been bad but there were rare good times too such as finding a good book, movie, or show and then another one.
 
sarahR

sarahR

Experienced
Nov 11, 2020
225
I can't advise you on that. That's a decision you have to take alone. To fight or not to. You have to consider your options very well.
 

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