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I always feel better when I read that. My ctb partner and I are using sn with the red cap on Jan 7th.
Like any of us, you have no idea if this person really drank SN and failed. She may have. She may not have. This site is filled with many pro-lifers who come here only to tell their false tales of unsuccessful ctb in order to try and convince those who truly want to ctb that methods are no good, and if you try them, you might fail, too. It's a scare tactic. You have to be able to weed out the bogus claims.
I'm just taking it day by day. I'm still working so that helps. I want to spend one last Christmas with my husband.
I see. I also want to spend Christmas with my wife. How do you feel about leaving your husband here?
I'm pushing the guilt away. I'm selfishly concentrating on myself so that this happens. I've lost all hope and now I've a wonderful ctb partner so it's happening. Those ctb failure posts don't help but I'm confident it will work.
I hope for the best for you. Jealous you have a partner to join you.
I think I am going to use DD's instead of the one from Turkey. I'm probably going to open it and do a side by side comparison of the two, and I'll probably just end up using DD's. Because if I fail at this and the only way that I would fail would be because of the product, not because of me backing out, or not drinking the whole glass etc. But only if the product is defective will I fail (and be in a lot of pain if that's the case); so if I do fail, I don't see me trying again with it. So why not go all out and go with the brand that is more professional, etc. and that would be DD.
It's all I got. SN is my method and I don't have any other. So it has to work. Otherwise I'm stuck in this life with no way out. I'll be following the instructions in the PPH as well as Stan's Guide. The only medication I have is the Olanzapine which hopefully will keep me from vomiting. Thank you for your kind words.
What makes you so confident about the SN with the red cap? Asking because I possess SN with a red cap, and I would love to be more confident.
You're so lucky to have a method, date, AND a partner. May you both find true peace, smoothly, when the time arrives<3
I'm still nervous. Everything should work but still have that nightmare scenario of waking up alive while my ctb partner is dead. It's probably unlikely that will happen but it's still nerve racking. He and I are just counting the days.
