am i crazy and selfish lol

[rest in peace]

to make this short im gonna avoid details. so i almost committed ctb not too long ago and a close friend of mine managed to stop me, next day we had planned something together and he cancels last minute because "now i cant cuz X guy wants to hang out" so i got pretty upset cuz i felt worthless, idk if its understandable or my mental state was just so weak that day. he asked if i was upset about it and i say yes then he manages to make me feel guilty for being upset..? he then just vanished mid argument for a week or more and now just sends a meme? am i overreacting or is he just weird?

 

[stoopid]

What a dick, weird dick. Do what what you want not what that "friend" want. It looks like some intermediate gas lighting from him.

 

[cogmachine]

his behavior is very strange and rude. i wouldn't blame you one bit for reacting like that.

 

[rest in peace]

What a dick, weird dick. Do what what you want not what that "friend" want. It looks like some intermediate gas lighting from him.

i guess he is a bit of a dick but how is he gaslighting me?

 

[stoopid]

i guess he is a bit of a dick but how is he gaslighting me?

It's obviously manipulative behavior, he know that you're suicidal and usually people, if they're not dicks or evil demons, they treat us with care after they found out that we're crazy, for example don't give us material to overthink, but that's clearly a move to make you insecure. Because he would know that you have thoughts like that, because nearly everyone whos into self-harm or suicide or depression generell has these more or less typical behavioral patterns.

 

[FuneralCry]

That person sounds really insensitive and cruel, you just cannot trust and rely on people like that, I think that it's best to stay away from them.

 

[sleepyturtle]

Thats really awful, this doesnt sound like a person who values you like a friend should. If you had set plans, its not normal to just ditch them to hang out with someone else, and even worse to make you feel like its your fault