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screaming rain

screaming rain

a hidden face
May 18, 2024
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I am 18 years old about to turn 19 and haven't done one thing that has made me proud of myself. This is me just letting it out. So I apologize if my story jumps around.

I have never been good at school and currently don't have a diploma. I have always created problems in school. I was never focused on the work at hand. I was constantly getting into fights and doing stupid things. I switched over to homeschooling in 2022 and still haven't finished highschool. I mean I have to go test tomorrow and I have nothing to present. All I do is sleep. I have no job. No life outside of my room or online. I have no motivation to live.

Before this past year, I used to work for an animal rescue group. It was okay till the woman would mentally abuse me. She would aslo be neglect full of the animals and one day I had to carry two dead, malnorished dogs out of their kennels and bag them up while she was on a date with her boyfriend. After that I decided to put the weight of their lifes on my shoulders. It was to the point where I would be staying nights there. Not to mention it was 70+ animals I had to care for. I ended up getting into an arguement with her boyfriend and lost the job. Afterwards I sank. I was constitantly worried about animals but now I struggle to work around them. I have lost my motivation for work.

It is now coming up on a year after this all and the animals are flooding my head again. I am struggling to work.

Somedays I wish my parents would just kick me out of the house. I feel so useless but can't be bothered to get up. I cast myself out of family events. I spend so much time in my room away, my parents forget I am here at times. I just wish there was a way for me to not exist anymore without hurting anyone.

I apologize again for the randomness of the paragraphs. I am typing this out with a half awake brain. Theres more but I just cant get my thoughts straight.

Thank you for listening whoever reads this.
 
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mango000

mango000

wants to sleep forever
Nov 12, 2024
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i relate to what you say, ive also never really had much motivation to live. when i was a teenager i always assumed i would off myself before i turned 18, but i never got the courage to. i also wish there was a way i could just disappear, youre not alone. and none of us asked to be born, to be given the crushing pressure of life and expectations imposed on us without our consent. youre enough ❤️
 
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