Always dissapointed

[Braindead Atheist]

I wish I could go into a hospital and say that my circumstances are unbearable and then get euthanized. I just feel so tired and crabby these days. My pcos exhausts me. I got 8 hours of sleep last night and I feel sluggish, agitated and emotional. I tried taking supplements but they don't help. I'm always fat, hungry and crabby. I cramp all the time.

Its not just pcos...Every time I try to improve things it's just a dead end.

For example: I don't have money to continue my education in graphic design, I need a bachelor degree. So I looked into a LESS expensive web design program and thought I could use the grant money from my retarded person work experience thing, but they said any extra money goes back to the program funding.

I tried to find adult private lessons for tumbling. Only TWO places in the whole metro offer a class to begin with and one said they don't offer private lessons AND their class is full. The other never got back to me after I called AND emailed twice. I'm tired of life's crap.

I'm sure these were just impulse ideas anyway...I'll never get to design and ill never achieve my goals.
Maybe I just wasn't meant to succeed. I don't think the laws of reality allow it. Some say it doesn't matter. Well it does when you're this fed up. Believe me...

some say I should be grateful for what I have. But thats hard to do when I can't have ANYTHING good and everything I do have exhausts, bores, or frustrates me.

It's all disappointment. Every last thing. I'm done going out of my way to find an open door because THERE ARE NONE.
The only escape is ctb.

 

[jodes2]

Life is shit. Sorry you're suffering sorry you're struggling to find somewhere to study

 

[FuneralCry]

This life certainly is very disappointing and unsatisfying and it does feel as though suffering is simply inescapable as long as we exist. Your feelings of wishing to be euthanised are understandable, that is what I've always wished for, to die peacefully without the struggle of planning methods and worrying about methods potentially failing. I envy those who are able to get euthanasia. Unfortunately that's not the reality for most of us, but I wish you the best.

 

[Braindead Atheist]

This life certainly is very disappointing and unsatisfying and it does feel as though suffering is simply inescapable as long as we exist. Your feelings of wishing to be euthanised are understandable, that is what I've always wished for, to die peacefully without the struggle of planning methods and worrying about methods potentially failing. I envy those who are able to get euthanasia. Unfortunately that's not the reality for most of us, but I wish you the best.

Yeah I wish it were reality too...I just want to shut my tired eyes for good...