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Roadkill

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Dec 25, 2018
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I really want to die, but I am too much of a pussy to actually try it.. I want to buy a shotgun and shoot myself in the head, but I am too scared to even buy the gun... I am scared of everything.. I tried anti depressants but they made things 10X worse... anyone have any alternatives to suicide for someone who is scared of everything?
 
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First loss

Specialist
Jan 28, 2019
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Alternatives? Like what?

You can always attempt and restore your life to the better.

If you want to die but don't want to kill yourself, i'd recommend getting a realistic replica of a gun and attacking a cop or someone armed
 
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Cookiedough8956

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Feb 24, 2019
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Oh my goodness, its scary how i relate to this so much.

@First loss- thats actually not a bad idea.
If i tried that here. I got no chance of survival lol. Cops are too trigger happy here
 
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First loss

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Jan 28, 2019
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Oh my goodness, its scary how i relate to this so much.

@First loss- thats actually not a bad idea.
If i tried that here. I got no chance of survival lol. Cops are too trigger happy here
It has nothing to do with being trigger happy or anything.

He is trained to take down a threat.
Be that threat.
He will take you down.
Simple.
 
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Roadkill

Experienced
Dec 25, 2018
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Alternatives? Like what?

You can always attempt and restore your life to the better.

If you want to die but don't want to kill yourself, i'd recommend getting a realistic replica of a gun and attacking a cop or someone armed
Alternatives as in trying to get back to a time where I didn't want to kill myself... most of my life I didn't want to CTB, but in the past 6 months or so, suicide is all I can think of.. I really want to die and I don't know where this feeling came from.. maybe it came from the fact that I am 56 years old, and I really fear the future of getting really old...
 
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Cookiedough8956

Wowzers
Feb 24, 2019
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It has nothing to do with being trigger happy or anything.

He is trained to take down a threat.
Be that threat.
He will take you down.
Simple.

Well yes they are def trained for that. But some cops gets a little too comfortable. Well from the news ive read for NYC (but this im pretty sure goes on everywhere)
 
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First loss

Specialist
Jan 28, 2019
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Alternatives as in trying to get back to a time where I didn't want to kill myself... most of my life I didn't want to CTB, but in the past 6 months or so, suicide is all I can think of.. I really want to die and I don't know where this feeling came from.. maybe it came from the fact that I am 56 years old, and I really fear the future of getting really old...
You fear the old age?
I don't know what to tell you man.
If you want to stay alive, your best bet would be to accept that you will grow old and there is nothing you can do to change it.

I'd recommend finding some good hobbies and starting exercising to keep sickness away.
 
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Snee

Student
Aug 3, 2018
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if my mental illness cured i change my name and face using plastic surgery
 
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Noitu x Love

Lone Wolf
Feb 13, 2019
35
It has nothing to do with being trigger happy or anything.

He is trained to take down a threat.
Be that threat.
He will take you down.
Simple.
>believing this crap in 2019
Thinking.jpg
 
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Its911

Sociopath
Feb 28, 2019
310
I really want to die, but I am too much of a pussy to actually try it.. I want to buy a shotgun and shoot myself in the head, but I am too scared to even buy the gun... I am scared of everything.. I tried anti depressants but they made things 10X worse... anyone have any alternatives to suicide for someone who is scared of everything?

My friend the problem is you fear more death, than living. Once you fear living more, death is becomes easier.
 
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JustAboutDone

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Jan 1, 2019
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Hi @Roadkill that makes sense in lots of ways but you are only 56 now which is still young imo. What is it that started to scare you?
 
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odette

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Feb 5, 2019
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Please don't commit suicide by cop. There are ways to kill yourself without traumatizing someone.
 
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cornflowerblue

Mage
Feb 18, 2019
553
Alternatives? Like what?

You can always attempt and restore your life to the better.

If you want to die but don't want to kill yourself, i'd recommend getting a realistic replica of a gun and attacking a cop or someone armed
This isn't a good method. Most cops are trained to identify and respond when somebody is trying suicide by cop.
 
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First loss

Specialist
Jan 28, 2019
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This isn't a good method. Most cops are trained to identify and respond when somebody is trying suicide by cop.
Really? I mean you can easily counter that by actually attacking him until he puts you down.

Cops in my country aren't trained for that though.
 
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lukaszz12

Member
Nov 4, 2018
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This isn't a good method. Most cops are trained to identify and respond when somebody is trying suicide by cop.
That's funny. I feel like cops, at least in the US are trained to shoot to kill as soon as someone reaches into their pocket
 
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cornflowerblue

Mage
Feb 18, 2019
553
Really? I mean you can easily counter that by actually attacking him until he puts you down.

Cops in my country aren't trained for that though.
I don't know about all countries. In the US, mental health crisis training is becoming incredibly common for police though, and many departments have tranqs so they can take you down and remove your gun without hurting you. If you're not familiar with guns, it'll be really easy for a well-trained person to physically get the gun out of your hand or bait you into shooting at a bad angle.
 
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cornflowerblue

Mage
Feb 18, 2019
553
That's funny. I feel like cops, at least in the US are trained to shoot to kill as soon as someone reaches into their pocket
Not if they can tell you're trying to suicide by cop. A lot of body language gives it away.
 
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cornflowerblue

Mage
Feb 18, 2019
553
That's why you have to be convincing in your attempt.
If you're so good with a gun then why not shoot yourself though? It'll be a lot harder on your family if you're shot by a cop, and you'll also traumatize the cop. There's also no guarantee that the cop would even fatally shoot you. We hear about the fatal shootings on the news but so many people just get a shot to the foot, knee, or ribs and then go to a hospital where they end up surviving just fine.
 
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Help_Me

Gene pool mistake
Oct 21, 2018
516
I am nobody to judge you, but it seems like you are afraid of dying and this probably means there is still a chance to somehow recover.. I might be wrong as well and sorry if I am mistaken. As for the alternatives for me, I'd choose full restoration and recovery from my mental illness but this is just a dream...
 
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First loss

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Jan 28, 2019
393
If you're so good with a gun then why not shoot yourself though? It'll be a lot harder on your family if you're shot by a cop, and you'll also traumatize the cop. There's also no guarantee that the cop would even fatally shoot you. We hear about the fatal shootings on the news but so many people just get a shot to the foot, knee, or ribs and then go to a hospital where they end up surviving just fine.
True. Just shooting yourself is bound to have higher lethality rate. Though OP asked for alternative, because he cannot bring himself to do it, and that's why I suggested it.
 
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cornflowerblue

Mage
Feb 18, 2019
553
True. Just shooting yourself is bound to have higher lethality rate. Though OP asked for alternative, because he cannot bring himself to do it, and that's why I suggested it.
If he can't bring himself to shoot himself, he'd be extremely obvious and easy to disable/save if trying suicide by cop. His anxiety and hesitation would be easily visible to the cop.
 
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Dutch

Student
Feb 13, 2019
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I really want to die, but I am too much of a pussy to actually try it.. I want to buy a shotgun and shoot myself in the head, but I am too scared to even buy the gun... I am scared of everything.. I tried anti depressants but they made things 10X worse... anyone have any alternatives to suicide for someone who is scared of everything?
What you can try is to ban everything that is negative for your soul and try to living the positive life and try to find hobby's, think out of the box and see if you can improve the quality of life for you that way. im 34 now and i did try everything that could change my life in a positive way, it did lower my depressions sometimes to have a nice hobby. but it dont solve the problems. i did go fish, photograph, gaming, nature and more to hide my problems. it made me happy sometimes for sure. i dont know your age, but i hope you try to change things in life. maybe your just not ready yet for suicide?
 
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First loss

Specialist
Jan 28, 2019
393
If he can't bring himself to shoot himself, he'd be extremely obvious and easy to disable/save if trying suicide by cop. His anxiety and hesitation would be easily visible to the cop.
Yes. I'm out of ideas though. He should try an exit bag.
 
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cornflowerblue

Mage
Feb 18, 2019
553
Yes. I'm out of ideas though. He should try an exit bag.
I think it's hard to pick a method if OP is scared of everything. All of the methods are scary because of the risk of pain, failure, organ damage, consequences of being found early, etc
 
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suffering

Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
Aug 17, 2018
398
I'm sorry you are going through this. I am as well, only that I am younger so I have more years to endure, unfortunately. I suppose a way to cope would be to just endure till the end, see life as some sort of punishment that you need to go through... I am currently trying to make money, it will keep me busy. I can't wait to be dead.
 
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First loss

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Jan 28, 2019
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I think it's hard to pick a method if OP is scared of everything. All of the methods are scary because of the risk of pain, failure, organ damage, consequences of being found early, etc
True. Maybe exit bag is good choice for him.
 
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cornflowerblue

Mage
Feb 18, 2019
553
I really want to die, but I am too much of a pussy to actually try it.. I want to buy a shotgun and shoot myself in the head, but I am too scared to even buy the gun... I am scared of everything.. I tried anti depressants but they made things 10X worse... anyone have any alternatives to suicide for someone who is scared of everything?
Alternatives to suicide depend on why you want to die. You could sign up to volunteer somewhere, there are programs that cover food and housing if you do this.
 
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FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,782
When I was in school, I met a kid who, like me, was suicidal. Well, there were three of us. One of us was terrific at hiding it and he was super-popular. The other kid said to me one day that the difference between the popular guy and us was that he could "put a lid on it" (lock away the suicidal thoughts). The other kid also said that for us the options were suicide or becoming recluses (hiding from the world). He was a really good-looking kid and always had girlfriends. He said the only thing that kept him sane (he'd been on psych meds for ten years--but things got progressively worse) was being held. He craved his girlfriends' holding him (not sex, but sincere intimacy).

I think if we're deeply and chronically suicidal (I've been since I was nine), if we can't bring ourselves to ctb, then we need extremely powerful distractors. A lot of these can get us in trouble (drugs--both pharmaceutical and recreational, promiscuity...). I threw myself into a discipline that, to me, was almost religion-like. But if you can't fulfill basic needs, distractions may not be enough. The difference between the second kid above and me is that he could escape effectively enough in his distractions (authentic affection). I think if someone can find a consistently strong enough distraction from their pain they can stick it out longer. I'll have to ctb eventually b/c I'm not wealthy enough to stay alive and the costs of living keep increasing. Isn't it ironic that the powers-that-be proscribe suicide while sanctioning death due to poverty? Ah the hypocrisy of ideals. :)

Sorry for the long comment. Good luck finding your distraction.
 
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