Venting Alone

[stormrOzzy]

Feeling so much pain, being alone when I most needed someone around and living in the darkness of my room, screaming, crying and wondering why this pain. What have I done to the world? I deserve this ? There were so many questions with no answer, it was just me and my mind disturbed talking. I asked so much to get out of this situation, today I see myself wanting to feel all this pain again, I want to be alone and feel everything that is bad because somehow my body, my mind and my soul got used to that feeling. Happiness does not exist and reality is pure sadness.

 

[CornerE]

Most of us here are all alone .
I'm alone , but I don't feel lonely tbh .

You don't deserve that .
Why don't you get out , socialise with neighbors or make friends and find any job with lots of mates if that seems to be the problem .

 

[salvation]

I used to feel very lonely but I've grown to be solitary and lacking emotions. I have stopped feeling attraction and having desires, I feel schizophrenic.

 

[stormrOzzy]

Most of us here are all alone .
I'm alone , but I don't feel lonely tbh .

You don't deserve that .
Why don't you get out , socialise with neighbors or make friends and find any job with lots of mates if that seems to be the problem .

I have people who like it and want me to stay close, the problem is that I feel like being completely alone again and I know it is not very healthy, but I want to isolate myself. I'm running away from this, actually trying to get away from being alone

I used to feel very lonely but I've grown to be solitary and lacking emotions. I have stopped feeling attraction and having desires, I feel schizophrenic.

I see, I started to feel like this 2 years ago. I see myself now losing these emotions, feelings.It's like a part of me like solitude, it makes me confused because if I can stay close to people because there is a side of me that just wants to get away from everything? Very confusing.

 

[JayZT]

Isolation just adds to the pain that little bit more. At least when you're not alone you have something/someone to take your mind off it but when you're alone what can you do. You're just stuck there with your thoughts... for hours.

 

[Donewith_]

sorry you are feeling like that.
i feel like this path is really lonely.

 

[headinghome]

Can you get up walk out your door, run look up at the sun hear the birds...then go, at least start be grateful you CAN....try to imagine if you were physically impaired and be glad you aren't........you can move ahead....

 

[stormrOzzy]

Can you get up walk out your door, run look up at the sun hear the birds...then go, at least start be grateful you CAN....try to imagine if you were physically impaired and be glad you aren't........you can move ahead....

Today I woke up feeling like crap, all I wanted was to stay in the room and cry, wanted to hurt someone too or hurt me. But now I smoked a joint and wondered why I'm here like this? I can go out, I can run or ride a bike. I know ... I'll try this! Thank you

Isolation just adds to the pain that little bit more. At least when you're not alone you have something/someone to take your mind off it but when you're alone what can you do. You're just stuck there with your thoughts... for hours.

Yes ! You're right and you've given me great help, seriously! Today I had a fucking day and that your message made me feel better! I'll do my best to ward off this loneliness because she will not be good at anything