Almost time for ctb (sn)

[reyonrays]

Hey guys,

My first post was: How it's going and preparations

I wanted to get this out my chest., apologies but my writing is not that good, i will try my best.

Most of my medications has arrived, the only thing i'm waiting for is my sn. currently onroute to an airport.

I'm going to following a 3 days plan, and post a goodbye thread on the last day, 3th day of my protocol, and post a delay thread confirming my passing
I will be mostly be active on my other goodbye thead, posting update if possible.

Currnent plan is:
day 1:
- meto (syrup)
day 2:
- meto (syrup)
day 3:
- start fasting, no food as little water as possible
- At this point i will be driving to a secluded location but i'm thinking about doing this at home will have to see
- Take paracetamol, ibuprofen, and antiacid 1 hour/40 min before drinking sn
- in the mean time prepare 3 three cups of sn and cup with Oxazepam (50 mg) and Propranolol. I do have valium, but only 5mg so might have to skip that, or just include in the benzo mix
- Drink it and hopefully it will be peacefull

This protocol can change, in terms of timings of the benzo and all that, it's just a quick list of what i'm planning, when the day comes, i will provide an acurate protocol.
I might include a small amount of morphine into the mix, like oxycodone or zomorph or bottles morphine if i can find it, not much though, in terms of not making it worse, no need to complicate things

I'm so scared but it's time for me to leave and say goodbye, to my loved ones, to you guys, and ones that matters to me the most.

Anyways, i'll see you guys on on my other thread! If i'd have the strength, i will try my best to provide updates in the goodbye thread.

For now, take yourself, and see you soon! Peace!

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Wishing you peace and relief. Remember that SN has good stability and there is zero shame in changing your mind at any point before taking it. Not discouraging at all, your choices are fully yours. Let yourself feel whatever comes up. It's human<3 We are here for you.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for, I wish you the best.

 

[Goosechan]

It sounds like you've been through and are going through a lot. Your posts also seem very well written and thought out. I hope the next few days are peaceful and you will find what you are looking for by the end of it.

Remember that SN has good stability and there is zero shame in changing your mind at any point before taking it. Not discouraging at all, your choices are fully yours.

I wanna echo this, too.
Fewl free to update as much or as little as you want. I'm sure everyone here would like to keep you company and make you feel less alone if that would be comforting to you.

 

[reyonrays]

It sounds like you've been through and are going through a lot. Your posts also seem very well written and thought out. I hope the next few days are peaceful and you will find what you are looking for by the end of it.

I wanna echo this, too.
Fewl free to update as much or as little as you want. I'm sure everyone here would like to keep you company and make you feel less alone if that would be comforting to you.

Thanks you for your kind words, currently the urge is so strong, i have so many different emotions that i'm going through, and when the sn arrives, (currently being processed at the airport in latvia), i'll take a just a couple days of thinking about it what to do with it.

But for me, time will tell if i will go through with it, currently i think i will.

I'm so scared, but unfortunately it's time for me to finally go through with it, after months of thinking about it.

I'll have to change my protocol a bit to make sure timings are correct and all that. Really appreciate your kind words!