Almost there!! Kind of? (Idk what this is, just general stuff and planning/venting???)

[BlizzardSnow]

I'm planning to ctb the Wednesday or next Wednesday my SN arrives (Unless its around the holidays, then I'd do it after the new year when break ends.) I feel like I'm planning so far ahead though. I'm already planning what I'm going to do, not just the protocol but like the whole day. However, it's going to be for a while and I haven't gotten my meto yet, I'm going to try with a local pharmacy tomorrow. I don't know why I'm looking forward to it so much, especially since my SN hasn't even arrived yet. I don't know what I'm going to do if it gets stuck somewhere or doesn't arrive. I hope it arrives safely.

For now, I feel like I just have to survive maybe a month or so and it'll all be over. I just want to skip to the part where it arrives, but unfortunately I still have to live until then. I guess I'm sick right now though so I wouldn't want to ctb now anyway. I hope when the time happens I can go through with it. Because I feel so sure now, but there's so many people on this app that have it and just can't. But theres a Canada Post strike going on right now and im kinda stressed like some other people since the delivery might not go as smooth, idk

I've lived through this many months, no reason i cant go a couple more i guess. I dunno.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best.

 

[TheHolySword]

It's okay if things change once everything starts to come together. It's very normal for people to have second thoughts the closer it gets. Give yourself time to think if you need it. As always, this community is here for you. I hope you are able to find some calm in these next few weeks, and I hope you find peace.