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[nifii]

I have SN and meto. Tomorrow i'm gonna buy a benzo and then my CTB kit is ready.















I'm planning to CTB in mid/late january.

It feels so weird to actually have a plan now after so many years just contemplating it. I'm actually sad to die, i would rather have a nice life. But my health issues are irreversible and i'm already 5 years not doing anything with my life because of it. I feel sad that this will put my family through a very rough time and at the same time i'm caring less and less about it. I don't see my life going anywhere anymore and i just wanna leave.

Thanks for reading

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I'm running on the same timeline. Does your family have any inkling of how you're feeling?

 

[nifii]

I'm running on the same timeline. Does your family have any inkling of how you're feeling?

Yeah they have, i told them but they just see it as me threatening them. (I didn't said it in a threatening way, i just said that i can't live like this)

 

[LaVieEnRose]

That stinks that they interpreted your sincerely confiding your pain as some manipulative ploy.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's such a cruel and painful existence, and it really sounds like you have suffered a lot. I hope that when the time is right for you to leave, you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[Outandproud]

Seems like u did a good fight and now u need to rest. I can relate to that. Wishing u peace & love in this final days

 

[Ineedtodie]

That stinks that they interpreted your sincerely confiding your pain as some manipulative ploy.

Stinks as well how much that happens. People are just resentful and projecting in those cases. Its complicated.