I suffer with severe dissociation because of BPD, so my life literally feels like a dream all of the time lol. It feels like I'm watching life go by as if I were watching it at the movies, behind a screen. I see people the same age as me move on, grow up, marry and get jobs, have kids. When I am stuck being 12 and 110 years old simultaneously in my head. Afraid of people, non functional, unemployed, no partner, kids or even friends I can talk to. Just pointless existence.
I wish it wasn't real. But unfortunately it is.