All my dreams are like a gorey horror movie

[Abstract]

For a reference I have not had a dream for close to a decade. Or at least not one that I remembered. But I am dreaming now and it's horrible. I don't know if it's because of my worsening depression or what, but I need to post this somewhere.

I am too afraid to sleep now. The only thing I can dream is of death. No, not someone falling over dead, but of something graphic. Might be too graphic to say here. It's terrifying because it's all the people that I know.

It's even worse when it's me. It's as if I can feel what is happening and it ranges from odd to waking up screaming in a cold sweat. Still might be too graphic to go into details.

Have you had that dream of falling and you wake up after a while. That is just the first hour of my sleep. I calm down and go back to sleep. And the it's the most gruesome death/murder I've ever seen. Best part of that is I can't wake up. It's like I'm strapped to a chair being forced to watch this.

I think the worst part of it is when I see myself doing it, especially to the people I know. I've even dreamed about taking my life, what it would feel like. I don't want to dream this, but i have no control. It's like the most insane parts of my mind are trying to get out into the real world and I have to keep it in.

I know I need sleep, but I will stay awake until I can't anymore just because I am so afraid of my dreams.

 

[chr74]

are you taking any meds which might be affecting your dreams, or if not, i think there are some meds out there which may promote better dreams, such as for example prazosin

https://www.drugs.com/comments/prazosin/for-nightmares.html

 

[FuneralCry]

That certainly sounds so horrific, it just shows that it's really impossible to find relief from suffering in this hellish world even if one is sleeping. Existence certainly is a curse.

 

[Abstract]

are you taking any meds which might be affecting your dreams, or if not, i think there are some meds out there which may promote better dreams, such as for example prazosin

https://www.drugs.com/comments/prazosin/for-nightmares.html

No, I gave up on meds and shit

 

[outrider567]

For a reference I have not had a dream for close to a decade. Or at least not one that I remembered. But I am dreaming now and it's horrible. I don't know if it's because of my worsening depression or what, but I need to post this somewhere.

I am too afraid to sleep now. The only thing I can dream is of death. No, not someone falling over dead, but of something graphic. Might be too graphic to say here. It's terrifying because it's all the people that I know.

It's even worse when it's me. It's as if I can feel what is happening and it ranges from odd to waking up screaming in a cold sweat. Still might be too graphic to go into details.

Have you had that dream of falling and you wake up after a while. That is just the first hour of my sleep. I calm down and go back to sleep. And the it's the most gruesome death/murder I've ever seen. Best part of that is I can't wake up. It's like I'm strapped to a chair being forced to watch this.

I think the worst part of it is when I see myself doing it, especially to the people I know. I've even dreamed about taking my life, what it would feel like. I don't want to dream this, but i have no control. It's like the most insane parts of my mind are trying to get out into the real world and I have to keep it in.

I know I need sleep, but I will stay awake until I can't anymore just because I am so afraid of my dreams.

Not had a dream in ten years? I dream every night and most of them are really bad: Working at an awful job about to be fired, or in the military service for three years, or getting arrested, or car being stolen, or an alien invasion--Wish i didn't dream at all