Alcoholics, where are you?

[They call me Death.]

Is there already a thread like this? Otherwise, tell me how you're feeling rn. Or anything thats on your mind.

 

[SASU-KE]

They're not sure where they are currently. Need to give them some time to sober up




I had a short stint with alcohol myself. God, I enjoyed myself so much during that time but I'll still never do it again. It's not worth it. Just not.

Whatever it gives you, it takes back a lot more.

How are you doing? How's your relationship with it right now?

 

[enne]

sorry, was grabbing a beer. what's up?

Whatever it gives you, it takes back a lot more

this is the truest thing i've ever seen

sorry, was grabbing a beer. what's up?

this is the truest thing i've ever seen

oh how am i doing? awful

 

[drag201]

Aahahah been struggling with alcohol since I was 16 so a few years. It's been alright but I try to keep everything as moderate as circumstantially possible. I drink and spree post here a lot since people dont wanna listenn to me ramble and I cant give away that Im drunk. How are you?

 

[SadGirl]

Is there already a thread like this? Otherwise, tell me how you're feeling rn. Or anything thats on your mind.

I'm crying and I don't even know why. I've got a job now and I feel like it's my only achievement this year. But I'm having suicidal ideations. And I'm drinking every day, I don't think I can stop anymore, but I'll try, I'm not well mentally and emotionally, that's clear. But I'm going on with life like this.

 

[restingplace]

Not exactly an alcoholic but recently I've been gulping down vodka and getting high whenever I can, when it starts to wear off and i get sad I just rinse and repeat.

You can't get hungover if you're always drunk

 

[Shadows From Hell]

I'm here!

 

[SadGirl]

Not exactly an alcoholic but recently I've been gulping down vodka and getting high whenever I can, when it starts to wear off and i get sad I just rinse and repeat.

You can't get hungover if you're always drunk

I never had the courage to drink again with a hangover, I always thought it makes everything worse. But now I'm drinking.

 

[mistake22]

having the label of alcoholic is a very miserable and painful experience. People feel sorry for you the first couple of sad drunken rants but anything after is just people making fun of you and not wanting to listen to you even when youre sober. Alcohol is a big waste of time and kills all motivation

 

[E4syW3y0u7]

I'm not sure if i'm actively an alcoholic because i don't have the guts to go out of the house to buy the stuff.

But when i'm starting to freak out or i'm submerged by anguish, i get out of my room and try to find anything that is booze, i grab beers and shotgun them, grab wine and drink gulps super fast/shots of liquor, you name it.

Taste is the least of my worries when i drink, the only thing i'm worried about is how long/how much do i need to start being impaired and on the verge of passing out.

I don't like it, i know that it's so toxic on you/damages your body but i just want the thoughts and the pain to be drowned for a bit... I know it's pathetic but i can't help it... I've never thought i'd be where i'm at right now in my life...

 

[mistake22]

Not exactly an alcoholic but recently I've been gulping down vodka and getting high whenever I can, when it starts to wear off and i get sad I just rinse and repeat.

You can't get hungover if you're always drunk

Oof. I cant drink after a hangover. Its literally hell in my opinion. I would be careful thats how people get those infamous 72 hour symptoms (shakes, delirium, seizures)

 

[They call me Death.]

I'm not doing well, guys. Having a lot of trouble with not buying anything tonight. I can't even last a day without 2 bottles of wine anymore. If I don't kill myself, the alcohol eventually will.

 

[SASU-KE]

I'm not doing well, guys. Having a lot of trouble with not buying anything tonight. I can't even last a day without 2 bottles of wine anymore. If I don't kill myself, the alcohol eventually will.

Please try your best. My situation was really dire at a point of time. First thing I used to do after getting up was start drinking. And if my alcohol was over, I used to go out in the pouring rain or the hot sun. You couldn't stop me lol.

But I had to stop. It's just such a terrible, terrible thing. It whittles you down to nothing and makes you a slave.I behaved terribly on it. I'll never do it again. To be honest, I stopped it more for others sake than myself. And I don't mean to say that I'm some Saint. It's just that I was way too much of an ass,lol.

I just went cold Turkey. If you don't want to do that, I would suggest just focus on a single day today. Take tomorrow the same way and then the next day as well. It's very difficult to imagine a future without alcohol. But if you can just imagine and abstain today, it will add up. And one day you will be free. You'll be you again.

 

[graveflower]

Every day I tell myself that "No, not tonight. I should skip tonight." But then I always cave. I work at a place that sells alcohol so that makes it harder. My tolerance is going up and I'd rather it didn't. I just have a hard time existing as a sober person. I'm trying to hold off for at least another hour before I start drinking.

How are you, though?

 

[notreallybored]

ב''ה, they're either locked indoors (if they have an indoors) feeding their depression or out making everyone else buy them drinks.

 

[They call me Death.]

ב''ה, they're either locked indoors (if they have an indoors) feeding their depression or out making everyone else buy them drinks.

That sounds like a dick response bro. Thats not the type of shit I need on my thread.

 

[DeoxygenDaydream]

Please don't start drinking regularly/daily if you aren't an active alcoholic or even alcohol enjoyer; It's evil in the plainest of ways.

I quit cold turkey in early December '25 sans Thursday nights when I went out to my favorite gay bar because my now-ex girlfriend told me to quit and that it was a causing a rift between us. Despite that, my mental health was the kick in the head and I relapsed hard when she broke up with me. I think I've had no more than three 24-hour periods without alcohol in the last 4 months since she broke up with me for being "too much to handle", despite her having to pry my feelings out of me for fear of being a burden. I've gotten blackout drunk at home countless times, done some things I never thought I'd do otherwise, and hurt a lot of friends in my stupors. I've thrown pieces of my life away over the worst breakup my short little life has had. I want to slow down but I haven't done enough to internalize persisting for even another year to consider it too seriously. My antics and sins only make me feel worse and irredeemable, making me want to ctb more.
It's a wicked feedback loop and I advise anyone outside or on the outskirts to quit while they're ahead. It feels so good in the moment but there has to be a better outlet. I wouldn't wish this upon anyone. It feels just so awful and pathetic. I hate myself for drinking so much but I can only cope right now with a nice 6+ shots of booze every night. It took me over a month to have a day where I didn't drink before work. It's so ensive, embarrassing, and likely problematic in the long term if you end up living your life.
That being said, I've had at least 3 shots of gin as I wrote this, and 3 at least beforehand. I'm in the fucking deep end baby and I'm still diving for gold. I don't like myself enough yet to stop but I'm never drunk enough to die by my own hand. It's a cursed middle ground. There's no sign of deck around this pool but I keep paddling this deep end. I'm just glad I make enough money to fuel this god awful habit without resorting to cooking vodkas and the sort.

 

[SASU-KE]

I've gotten blackout drunk at home countless times, done some things I never thought I'd do otherwise, and hurt a lot of friends in my stupors. I've thrown pieces of my life away over the worst breakup my short little life has had. I want to slow down but I haven't done enough to internalize persisting for even another year to consider it too seriously. My antics and sins only make me feel worse and irredeemable, making me want to ctb more.

Well said .We must stop for others at least, if not for ourselves. it's just not worth what we get out of it.

 

[battybites]

Hi, actually reached rock bottom the other night with my alcohol substance issues.. it's what finally pushed me to make an account here rather than just lurking. I can't face myself sober but the hours/days after heavily drinking doesn't help me feel much better with my life

 

[red_cardinal]

Here I'm sober now, almost 3 years. The worst experiences of my life happened under the influence. Not only my choices, but also the treatment I received from my birthgiver, unprovoked, the threats... As if I was abusing alcohol because I was too well mentally. It's in the past, at least the habit is, the trauma it created is another story.

 

[CatsMeow]

I used to have it worse by ODing on sleep medicine and red wine. I still drink, especially 40-60% vodka with soda. I always finish the entire bottle. Its nearly the only thing which cheers me up

 

[Celerity]

I try to cut back as best as I can. Due to recent stresses, I have been less successful. My use doesn't interfere with my daily life, and I don't even drink most days, but I can't stop. I am worried mainly about the cumulative health effects, especially since I have other risk factors for cancer that really shouldn't be messed with.

 

[burninghill]

I used to overdose on DPH regularly and started to really miss the impaired coordination, so I've switched to daily drinking and its all I look forward too really. I just keep going most nights to see how uncoordinated I can make myself. I'll usually go on walks because I find it fun to try and do so when your balance is barely hanging on. It doesn't matter the time of day. Sometimes I'll start drinking at 6am and go on a walk at 8.