Alcohol and not eating

[Csmith8827]

I don't know if this is the right forum for this but last night in the middle of the night I went to bathroom and vomited on an empty stomach...I hadn't eaten anything for 2 days. I made myself eat a little bit today but the alcoholism is fucking ridiculous...I think as long as I don't do liquor I should be ok though...it's just too much. Like these people need fucking help. This planet is shit, I need to ctb. I'll be so happy when all of this is legalized one day or N is on the market. It's just so damn bad... anyone else struggle with eating/alcoholism? My stomach is so fucked up...

 

[h.sonnenschein]

Not the eating bit but I've slowly ramping back up to my school days drinking wise.

 

[Unattainable666]

I drink to ease the pain. (not physical)

 

[day]

I drink a ton every night, hangovers are awful. I throw up often as I always overdo it. I take benzos with the alcohol to fall asleep, it's the only way I can sleep.

Sorry you're suffering OP. I hope you find peace one day.

 

[SeaBreeze]

My father passed away from kidney failure at age 45, so I only consume a beer here and there. Today I'm wishing I had never learned cause of death and become more like my father

 

[blitz]

I drink everyday and eat very little. I see food as fuel to keep going so it's not important to me anymore.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

OP sorry life brought you to this point. If you really intend to CTB alc is not the solution in any case it takes decades to CTB from alc and/or not eating. Yes I personally drink alc to calm me down almost daily but I don't have hope this is gonna kill me in any way rather it will just cause more harm in the distant future. If you really intend to CTB then you should consider methods but everything else will just lead to more physical pain and therefore probably mental pain and suffering. Should you want to try recovery this will also be fully respected!

I hope you can find peace.

I believe that the "legal drug" alcohol is one of the worst drugs that is legal comapred to most banned drugs. It's just my opinion.