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[Doctorj115]

I didn't. It happened over 2 years ago and there's nothing I can do now. I don't know anything about legal issues or how to get a lawyer and it wouldn't solve anything anyways.

Don't get me wrong though, my mom would be wrecked. Tough on the outside, very soft on the inside. God, I'm getting sick thinking about this, but I've gotta get a way out. Life is literally just too painful and there's no mincing words about it. Hopefully I can muster up the competence to get the "N" drug and actually go through with it once obtained.

 

[Volatile]

That's one way I certainly could not go. I hate heights and pain.

There's no pain. The bridge I'm considering is 900 feet up. You're dead when you hit the ground which means your brain is never able to let you know of any pain. The problem is it's a 9 second fall. A lot of regret and fear can show up there

 

[ephemeral]

The problem is it's a 9 second fall. A lot of regret and fear can show up there

I understand. It's also that you could not change course if you wanted to.

As I also consider this option, I realize that I suffer each day a lot more than 9s. That's just me.

 

[Volatile]

I didn't. It happened over 2 years ago and there's nothing I can do now. I don't know anything about legal issues or how to get a lawyer and it wouldn't solve anything anyways.

Don't get me wrong though, my mom would be wrecked. Tough on the outside, very soft on the inside. God, I'm getting sick thinking about this, but I've gotta get a way out. Life is literally just too painful and there's no mincing words about it. Hopefully I can muster up the competence to get the "N" drug and actually go through with it once obtained.

Yeah, I don't know much about legal issues either. I would've gotten as far as threatening the doctor with a lawsuit. And you're right. Money wouldn't undo what he did.

Is life painful 24/7 or are there times when you feel alright?

 

[Doctorj115]

As of the last 2 months I've been in complete emotional agony 100% of the time. How bout you?

 

[Doctorj115]

So I think I'll be ordering the peaceful pill handbook tonight after work. I think N is my only way to go. All other methods freak me out. I've heard of people approximating brain dead status after freaking out with the helium/nitrogen bags and removing them last second. That outcome is more nightmarish than my current, and to have my mom see her only child a vegetable for the rest of life is truly something that puts an ache in the pit of my stomach.

 

[Volatile]

I understand. It's also that you could not change course if you wanted to.

As I also consider this option, I realize that I suffer each day a lot more than 9s. That's just me.

I've been going over in my head how I would do it. Climbing over the barrier and standing on the ledge facing the bridge like many people do would be the wrong choice. It would cause the survival instinct to kick in hard.

Also jumping forward would be scary and make you think, "Oh no. What did I just do?" But falling backward (with eyes closed maybe) would probably work. The guy at the end of the documentary The Bridge falls back and doesn't flail at all. Pure acceptance

 

[Volatile]

As of the last 2 months I've been in complete emotional agony 100% of the time. How bout you?

I have brief moments of feeling alright. But then I become aware of this empty feeling and it's suffocating. And I get anxious and always feel on edge like I can never relax. It's like cancer. It gets worse each day.

The problem is when family says "Just do such and such and life will get better." They don't understand the pain though. They think they do but they don't. Then I feel guilty because suicide means I'm giving up. It's so fucked.

 

[Volatile]

So I think I'll be ordering the peaceful pill handbook tonight after work. I think N is my only way to go. All other methods freak me out. I've heard of people approximating brain dead status after freaking out with the helium/nitrogen bags and removing them last second. That outcome is more nightmarish than my current, and to have my mom see her only child a vegetable for the rest of life is truly something that puts an ache in the pit of my stomach.

I think you can get that book online free. Ask around on here.

Being a vegetable would be a worse Hell than the one we're already in. That's why I can't do partial suspension. You pass out quick but you don't die for like 20 minutes. I would be terrified of someone rescuing me.

 

[Threads]

I live in North America, I'm between 20 - 40, and I am the gender of bros.

 

[Doctorj115]

Yeah I was looking into slow drop hanging for a while but too many mixed opinions on it. People being permanently damaged from it, the feelings of your eyeballs popping out, etc. seems gruesome. I think barbiturates are really the best and only way to go if possible. I would also opt for someone to put a bullet in my head but finding such an accomplice is rather difficult.

 

[Volatile]

I live in North America, I'm between 20 - 40, and I am the gender of bros.

Lol That's so broad it might just be specific enough. You must be 30 and live in Texas.

 

[Threads]

Lol That's so broad it might just be specific enough. You must be 30 and live in Texas.

Holy shit, you're a psychic. How'd you know?

 

[Volatile]

Yeah I was looking into slow drop hanging for a while but too many mixed opinions on it. People being permanently damaged from it, the feelings of your eyeballs popping out, etc. seems gruesome. I think barbiturates are really the best and only way to go if possible. I would also opt for someone to put a bullet in my head but finding such an accomplice is rather difficult.

Hanging can also leave you paralyzed. That's one step below vegetable.

Such an accomplice would just need to be a new enemy you met at the bar.

 

[Doctorj115]

Such an accomplice would just need to be a new enemy you met at the bar.[/QUOTE]

Ha. I wouldn't want something violent. Planned out with someone who was interested in helping me would feel more appropriate

 

[Luke]

So I think I'll be ordering the peaceful pill handbook tonight after work. I think N is my only way to go. All other methods freak me out. I've heard of people approximating brain dead status after freaking out with the helium/nitrogen bags and removing them last second. That outcome is more nightmarish than my current, and to have my mom see her only child a vegetable for the rest of life is truly something that puts an ache in the pit of my stomach.

You can download it from the resources sticky thread.

 

[Volatile]

Ha. I wouldn't want something violent. Planned out with someone who was interested in helping me would feel more appropriate

I guess you're right lol. Also they may not use a gun. A knife or a broken beer bottle would be an awful way to go. I couldn't imagine the pain

 

[Doctorj115]

You can download it from the resources sticky thread.

Can you send me a link? Can't seem to find it. I'm downright horrible with technology

 

[RainAndSadness]

How much was it?

I'll send you a pm.

And are you sure it's pure/strong enough?

Yes. Malice did it with the same product if I'm not mistaken.

 

[Vincent Moraes]

If you could also pm me about that, it would be nice.

 

[wanttodie]

late 55
Male
Canada

Can you send me a link?

 

[Unsure girl]

Female 35
Can i join this conversation

 

[Vincent Moraes]

25, Male, Brazil

 

[agreement]

50, M, Italy

 

[Smilla]

So I think I'll be ordering the peaceful pill handbook tonight after work. I think N is my only way to go. All other methods freak me out. I've heard of people approximating brain dead status after freaking out with the helium/nitrogen bags and removing them last second. That outcome is more nightmarish than my current, and to have my mom see her only child a vegetable for the rest of life is truly something that puts an ache in the pit of my stomach.

Please don't spread misinformation about the exit bag method. I have never heard of what you describe. You have "heard of people"? What people, where? You obviously have no clue what you are talking about unless you mean exit bags without the use of inert gas in which case no one is "approximating" brain dead status as I tried this method years ago (sans the gas obviously) and my brain was just fine after ripping the bag off.

Cite your source. You are needlessly scaring people into forgoing this method which is painless and fast and recommended by all of the assisted dying folks.

 

[Doctorj115]

Please don't spread misinformation about the exit bag method. I have never heard of what you describe. You have "heard of people"? What people, where? You obviously have no clue what you are talking about unless you mean exit bags without the use of inert gas in which case no one is "approximating" brain dead status as I tried this method years ago (sans the gas obviously) and my brain was just fine after ripping the bag off.

Cite your source. You are needlessly scaring people into forgoing this method which is painless and fast and recommended by all of the assisted dying folks.

Several redditors mentioned have undergone such tragedies. I'm not trying to "scare" anyone I'm simply looking out for the well being and safety of people if you can believe it. So chill out.

 

[Smilla]

Several redditors mentioned have undergone such tragedies. I'm not trying to "scare" anyone I'm simply looking out for the well being and safety of people if you can believe it. So chill out.

Several "redditors"? Then they weren't doing it correctly and no one is going to be brain dead if they pull the bag off last second so you are wrong there too. And if these redditors underwent such a tragedy so as to be brain dead how are they able to post on reddit? Also, you have heard several accounts of this? I doubt it.

Sorry but hundreds of people have died using this method alone in the US in the past several years. And elsewhere across the world.

Looking out for the safety and well being of people doesn't include citing random accounts of people who tried this from "reddit". These are anecdotal accounts that are probably false. Failures with the helium/nitrogen method do, in fact, exist but there was air getting into the bag or via the tubes and this is easily detected prior to executing.

This method has even been employed at Dignitas for those for whom N or other drugs were unsuitable

 

[ScaredOfLife]

40/female/Indiana, USA

 

[Smilla]

38/f/east coast US

 

[Santiago]

I know the Netherlands permit it for mental health issues, but not Switzerland correct?

Wait are you talking about N?

In that case you are wrong. Pentobarbital is far from allowed in the Netherlands. It's in the opiumwet and there are very harsh punishments for breaking it.

Leading up to a 81k fine and jail time (years)