After trying two methods of suicide

[thatisitguy]

Since coming to this board, I've attempted suicide twice - SN and overdosing on narcotics.

It seems like that killing yourself is WAY harder than it's made out to be. I can get access to a gun and think I might go that route. Even that's a bit controversial in how to do it. I decided that is if I can get a gun, I won't shoot myself in the head but in the chest. I assume it's way easier to shoot yourself in the heart than the brain stem. Of course, I'd take a bunch of pills and be drugged up when I do it. There is no way to survive a gunshot to the heart.

Any thoughts?

Also, I spoke with a lawyer today. She confirmed that I have no criminal case pending so they cops aren't probably out to arrest me. She said they have a search warrant but that doesn't add up. She said the best thing to do is go about my life and see what happens. After much thought, I don't think there's anything to go back after I tried killing myself on Tuesday. I am not thanking God that I survived and how fucked up that is. I am annoyed that I did. There isn't anything to look forward to.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

What went wrong when you attempted it with SN?

 

[foolbastar24]

Thanks for your info. I have doubts about SN and overdosing so it's always nice to see people reporting successful/failed attempts. I don't like violent methods but it seems they're more effective. I'm not a pro here but what are the chances of missing the heart and not killing yourself? I heard they say the heart is near the center of your chest somewhere behind your lungs?

Anyway, third time's a charm, wishing you a successful CTB

 

[FuneralCry]

I also see it as so difficult to be free from this existence, to me personally it feels so cruel how it's not straightforward to be gone, I see it as so cruel how trying to die can go wrong.

 

[nibbleone]

I'm curious how SN went. What happened and who was your supplier?

 

[Romanticize]

also please provide a mix of substances and the quantities you did trying overdose.

Most people missing overdose dont do it proper way- wrong substances and way too small quantities.

As per shooting, in the head its instantenous (aim at temple or in open mouth), in the chest you will probably succeed as well but suffer for a minute or two.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Definitely going to suffer by shooting in chest.