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- May 13, 2024
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I am scared of doing it because of not knowing what comes next. I have been very unfortunate in this life. I tried very hard to fix my life but failed to do so. Maybe because of this I am very negative. Even after dying I can face worse fate with worse reincarnation as insect or animal which lives very painful fate. My life is ruined. I social life, career are completely shattered. I can't survive in this life.
I have been procrastinating from three days. I am scared to do it. My method is partial. If it was SN or some OD I would just take the drink or OD without thinking about anything. I wont have SI. I have tried benzo OD( some years back, there was no SI, but it doesn't work), I also did hang myself accidently not willingly while testing and got found out. I know hanging can be painless after few seconds but just not able to do it. Maybe fear of what to come next. I know I have to do it. Just can face it.
I have been procrastinating from three days. I am scared to do it. My method is partial. If it was SN or some OD I would just take the drink or OD without thinking about anything. I wont have SI. I have tried benzo OD( some years back, there was no SI, but it doesn't work), I also did hang myself accidently not willingly while testing and got found out. I know hanging can be painless after few seconds but just not able to do it. Maybe fear of what to come next. I know I have to do it. Just can face it.