Help Afraid to buy SN online (legal). Need advice

[negi-maguro]

I live in SEA and I can find SN in online marketplaces here. I have bookmarked a couple commerce that sells 50-100 grams of SN, but most sell it in plastic bags for around 1 usd. I need help because despite easy access to it, I keep procrastinating on buying it. It has been a year since I planned to buy it, and my life hasn't gotten any better during that time, which makes me increasingly feel like I need it. I just can't get myself from buying SN, here are some of my plan and also problems:
1. I plan to let it be delivered to the place I work.
2. I'm scared that it got noticed by the police and I will be interrogated about plan of assassination. Police here are cruel and the fact that I work at the NGO sector will make me a good target for being blamed for anything (they have been capturing activist to intimidate people into submission and I'm definitely intimidated)
3. I'm unsure about the quality, especially most come in sacks and are sold in plastic bags. its cheap also
4. I'm thinking of also buying gloves, one of those big glass or plastic research bottles (unfamiliar with the chemistry names)
5. I have no experience and access to get the drugs to smooth my ctb, maybe just antiemetics
6. I'm afraid my case could go viral in my country and make access to SN difficult. But this is just me thinking narcissistically, i guess
7. I really have a bad case of social anxiety

Does anyone know what I should do here? Will really appreciate it if anybody can also tell me what additional chemist gears I should get because the shops are chemical shop.

Additional vent because I got emotional:
I'm so tired, man. It's so lonely, nobody really hear what I'm saying. I'm a very squared up person, not cool and easy to be panic. My friends don't respect me, except for one which is the coolest person ever, but he lives in Bali now and he got other friends and I don't wnat my presence to bring him down so I never bother him unless i"m feeling like havingn fun. i have no plan in getting to any romatic relationship because im still a mess and scared of people. My parents have a huge expectation on me but I can only work where i feel comfortable. they keep hounding down on me to get a better job or a scholarship for a master degree but i keep failing on both. last week i was invited for an interview and presentantation to be an assistant consultant and while making the presentation i realized how lifeless consulting is like im looking at numbers going up. ended up not gettingn the job because i can't get myself to work on it seriously, doing it genuinely repulsive like im drowning a baby. recently came across people exchanging salary per year i see people getting 40k to 180k usd per year and it got me really depressed. iw sih theres a job where i just sit in an office doing stuffs so i can have something stable but i never get jobs like those idk. SaSu is cool tho, i mostly lurk.

 

[BradGuy123]

I wouldn't recommend having it delivered to your job. Let's say it does get noticed by the police and you get interrogated. If this happens and you had it delivered to your job, not only will the SN get confiscated but you would lose your job as well.

 

[negi-maguro]

I wouldn't recommend having it delivered to your job. Let's say it does get noticed by the police and you get interrogated. If this happens and you had it delivered to your job, not only will the SN get confiscated but you would lose your job as well.

Yeah, I agree. My thinking was that since I work in a building with multiple offices and a hotel, and it has a central delivery location, it would make things easier on my end because my package would be mixed in with many others, lowering suspicion. I still live with my parents, and they usually ask about packages addressed to me, so I try to avoid sending things to my home.

 

[rabbitjack]

You can always say you're using the SN for meat preservation. It's a legal substance, so I don't see what the issue is.

Also, did you say you're buying it for 1usd?

 

[rainatthebusstop]

1. Get a PO box. Or something similar. Don't let it get delivered to your work or your house directly. it will look suspicious and you might get interrogated
2. [I have nothing to add]
3. If you can, buy testing strips. There are guides on this forum on their usage and what level of purity may lead to success
4. Please handle your SN with fitting gloves
5. An antienemic sounds good, if you can maybe a painkiller or two as well

 

[negi-maguro]

You can always say you're using the SN for meat preservation. It's a legal substance, so I don't see what the issue is.

Also, did you say you're buying it for 1usd?

Yeah, around 20.000 rupiah or 1,19 usd for 1kg. But they came in bags, i think they honestly dgaf. There are also official SN that came in a bottle which cost like 30 usd but you must get it with a ceritficate or something. Honestly you're right, it is legal, I'm just a bit paranoid.

1. Get a PO box. Or something similar. Don't let it get delivered to your work or your house directly. it will look suspicious and you might get interrogated
2. [I have nothing to add]
3. If you can, buy testing strips. There are guides on this forum on their usage and what level of purity may lead to success
4. Please handle your SN with fitting gloves
5. An antienemic sounds good, if you can maybe a painkiller or two as well

PO box is not available for anything except mails in my country, but I really appreciate your input. I will get gloves and testing strips.

Honestly I'm tempted to not buy it online and just buy it straight from an independent retail chemistry shop. I sometimes spot some on my way to work. I'm still thinking about all this tbh...

 

[rainatthebusstop]

Yeah, around 20.000 rupiah or 1,19 usd for 1kg. But they came in bags, i think they honestly dgaf. There are also official SN that came in a bottle which cost like 30 usd but you must get it with a ceritficate or something. Honestly you're right, it is legal, I'm just a bit paranoid.

Honestly I'm tempted to not buy it online and just buy it straight from an independent retail chemistry shop. I sometimes spot some on my way to work. I'm still thinking about all this tbh...

Honestly it sounds like it might be easier for you to buy it in person there, as long as the chemistry shop doesn't want your ID. Also pay cash if that's possible.


Also very sorry about that thing with PO boxes I legit didn't know.

 

[raemysteryO]

Hi, living in the same country as well. I hope you're okay Sending a big hug!

I feel you. Unfortunately, my parents keep reminding me how expensive my education is, and think about my "ROI".

Have you gotten your SN? I doubt they'll ask around, I just purchased SN and send straight to my place with instant delivery, no question asked by the seller. I bought the whole bottle tho, not the clear repack packages.

 

[negi-maguro]

Hi, living in the same country as well. I hope you're okay Sending a big hug!

I feel you. Unfortunately, my parents keep reminding me how expensive my education is, and think about my "ROI".

Have you gotten your SN? I doubt they'll ask around, I just purchased SN and send straight to my place with instant delivery, no question asked by the seller. I bought the whole bottle tho, not the clear repack packages.

Hey, thanks a lot. I haven't bought SN because my money situation is kinda tight. A whole bottle would've costed you around a million, right? Personally, I'm still unsure if I should buy it online or visit an independent chemistry store. Planning to buy it next month if i could muster up the courage for it. But, damn, a whole bottle straight into a full household home, that's kinda insane. I still have to do some research on where to get a whole bottle too as I think the quality of SN in sacks or plastic bags must be bad. Still, thanks for the info about the seller, that definitely gave me some assurance on just buying it. Would love to get some more info about it tho.

 

[raemysteryO]

Hey, thanks a lot. I haven't bought SN because my money situation is kinda tight. A whole bottle would've costed you around a million, right? Personally, I'm still unsure if I should buy it online or visit an independent chemistry store. Planning to buy it next month if i could muster up the courage for it. But, damn, a whole bottle straight into a full household home, that's kinda insane. I still have to do some research on where to get a whole bottle too as I think the quality of SN in sacks or plastic bags must be bad. Still, thanks for the info about the seller, that definitely gave me some assurance on just buying it. Would love to get some more info about it tho.

Nearly but not more, including the testing kits. I bought the Indian brand instead of the Germany one. They included the CoA as well.

If you're worried about someone else receiving your package, you can always ask for instant delivery to a public place and wait there. They'll send you the What's App number of the courier so you can 'meet up' with them. I've done it before actually and no issue. I purchased at TKPD and find stores with the most image reviews.

Hey, whatever you choose to do, don't rush and think it through You can always vent here. People are so kind.

 

[negi-maguro]

Nearly but not more, including the testing kits. I bought the Indian brand instead of the Germany one. They included the CoA as well.

If you're worried about someone else receiving your package, you can always ask for instant delivery to a public place and wait there. They'll send you the What's App number of the courier so you can 'meet up' with them. I've done it before actually and no issue. I purchased at TKPD and find stores with the most image reviews.

Hey, whatever you choose to do, don't rush and think it through You can always vent here. People are so kind.

Okay, that should narrow things down. I'm still searching it in the green bird website and I still only found the German ones. But, anyways while I'm still looking for SN, I do still slow down and think things through. I just want something to hold in case things get rough and SN is a pretty hardcore way to go. I feel like despite holding an SN, I wouldn't have rush it, like I haven't even got antiemetics and other stuffs. I really appreciate your help, both for the hints and wise words. Hope things get better on your end.