sadanon3
Member
- Sep 1, 2021
- 34
I've wanted to CTB for a long time but I don't because I've convinced myself that I'm here to help other people.
This week I reached a goal that I've been working towards for years. It improved our financial situation significantly. My wife is really hard on me in general but today she's made it clear that nothing I do is good enough. I just feel so hopeless because I thought this would make her happy and make things better but she's being meaner than ever. This frustrates me because I don't even want to be here (alive) and I'm trying my best. It's hard to keep up the lie to myself that I'm here to do good things for people. I've succeeded and it's not enough for them, so what's the point of me continuing to struggle? Despite everything, I still look forward to and enjoy sleep so I'm going to try and focus on that.
This week I reached a goal that I've been working towards for years. It improved our financial situation significantly. My wife is really hard on me in general but today she's made it clear that nothing I do is good enough. I just feel so hopeless because I thought this would make her happy and make things better but she's being meaner than ever. This frustrates me because I don't even want to be here (alive) and I'm trying my best. It's hard to keep up the lie to myself that I'm here to do good things for people. I've succeeded and it's not enough for them, so what's the point of me continuing to struggle? Despite everything, I still look forward to and enjoy sleep so I'm going to try and focus on that.