ineverlived
Member
- May 31, 2022
- 73
I know that I have been defeated and will always be defeated, but this is excruciating pain. I can't lose my ego. No wonder soldiers who lost wars commit suicide. it's an unlivable feeling
Fadeawaaaay
Visionary
- Nov 12, 2021
- 2,158
It's a strange feeling to just give up … the fight just leaves you… and what are you left with ? A phantom existence … going through the motions… pretending you're alive to others … keeping the truth hidden …. It's too deeply weird and disturbing… but they can hear it in your voice or the way your body moves … the empty rasp and old man shuffling feet…
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 45,783
It really can be torturous being trapped in this hellish existence enduring day after day of suffering. It's horrific to me how life even exists. I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.
Rockman
Experienced
- Feb 9, 2020
- 235
Of course you can. Just take acid or another psychedelic and watch your ego dissolving like in cinema.
speck
Student
- May 5, 2020
- 178
I've never thought about it as being a soldier in a losing war- this is so spot on.
Especially because of the regret, the flashbacks..
Especially because of the regret, the flashbacks..
Barteljaap
Member
- Jan 17, 2021
- 78
I heard people saying these things about psychedelics so I decided to try myself. Granted the ones I have done have all been natural, not synthetic, but I have been quite underwhelmed. Despite tripping multiple times on a couple different substances, including 2 trips on a natural form of DMT, I still can't relate to any of the stuff that people claim they do. "Dissolving ego" is just an abstract concept to me.
Some of the trips were nice but feels like I didn't get my money's worth.
Lonerzepam
O'lord! I Have My Doubts
- Sep 2, 2022
- 619
makethepainstop
Visionary
- Sep 16, 2022
- 2,029
Can't get those anymore.
Rockman
Experienced
- Feb 9, 2020
- 235
Barteljaap
Member
- Jan 17, 2021
- 78
Nah, I'm skeptical. I already put a lot of effort into this. Plus I'm kind of tired of the "holier than thou" mentality among psychedelic users. Getting synthetic substances requires either knowing people in person or buying on the dark web. Natural ones are easier to get because law enforcement doesn't really care.
The only other thing I'm thinking of trying, which I haven't done yet, is magic truffles. I have heard of people having great trips on psilocybin, and truffles are a legal loophole.
Rockman
Experienced
- Feb 9, 2020
- 235
Just try both then you can have full spectrum opinion.
Personally shroms did nothing to me really, above stomach pain and feeling incerdibly sick. It was not even introduce to synthetic stuff. Waste of time.
Its not super hard to obtain. If you want find a way if you dont find obstacle. Super heap in global sellers, like two bucks for one blotter.
Personally shroms did nothing to me really, above stomach pain and feeling incerdibly sick. It was not even introduce to synthetic stuff. Waste of time.
Its not super hard to obtain. If you want find a way if you dont find obstacle. Super heap in global sellers, like two bucks for one blotter.
Cathy Ames
Cautionary Tale
- Mar 11, 2022
- 2,111
Are you talking about mathematics, or is there something else going on besides that? I can understand being discouraged, but please don't consider yourself defeated by math. A lot can be accomplished in 7 months if you get some help with it. And help is out there.
makethepainstop
Visionary
- Sep 16, 2022
- 2,029
Blotter almost as lovely a term, as microdot! Yum to the 23rd power.
Bad trip, good trip who knows, but I hope it helps depression.
