Latergator

Latergator

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Nov 7, 2018
11
Hi, i just wanna say thank you to everyone for all the knowledge that i have gotten from this site and it's posters. I think today is the day i ctb, I plan on taking 4 teaspoons(approx 15 g of SN) of SN and 100ml of DMSO. I also will take a big hit of weed from my pipe right after. I bought my SN (35g) in november from ebay from a UK supplier and I got my DMSO from amazon.

I'm 6"4 and approx 150 lbs and have not eaten or drunken anything in around 15 hours. If it's possible i would like to dm someone my full name and where they might find my obituary.

Right when i post this ill start mixing my SN and DMSO once dissolved i shall drink and cover my blanket over myself in my bed and post how i feel from my phone.
My story like others is of depression and anxiety starting from my young teenage years.
I have no highschool diploma, no drivers license, no car, no job, estranged from father and live with mother, no friends,no girlfriend. And not enough confidence or ambition to change much of this at this stage. In 2018 i tried really hard to change a lot of these things but to no avail.

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Latergator

Latergator

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Nov 7, 2018
11
trying to get the sn to dissolve properly its giving me more trouble than i thought, still little chunks of sn in the bottom. trying to break it up with a wooden skewer.
 
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Latergator

Latergator

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Nov 7, 2018
11
just ingested it laying down now
 
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Latergator

Latergator

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Nov 7, 2018
11
Taste horrible way worse than smell slight burning in chest
 
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Latergator

Latergator

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Nov 7, 2018
11
Laying here scared
 
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About_to_Go

About_to_Go

It deepens like a coastal shelf
Mar 20, 2018
303
Oh man, I'm sorry I didn't see this til now. I hope you found your peace
 
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JustAboutDone

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Jan 1, 2019
3,532
Only just seen this @Latergator wishing you all the best
 
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brighter

brighter

Warlock
Jan 22, 2019
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I'm so so sorry no one saw this until now. I hope your pain has ended @Latergator xxxx
 
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est0091

Dead behind the eyes
Oct 26, 2018
32
Oh man wishing you all the best.. I hope you don't puke it all up if not anti's
 
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Chlo

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Feb 17, 2019
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You're extremely brave and I wish you all the best! Thank you for generously letting us know and giving us updates. ♥️
 
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CameronCandie

CameronCandie

April-October
Feb 24, 2019
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goodbye man, you prolly dont know me cause im new, but goodbye! Youre really brave, and i hope your suicide helps you.
 
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Philip

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Oct 23, 2018
318
I hope you went peacefully
 
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est0091

Dead behind the eyes
Oct 26, 2018
32
Can someone please confirm if this was an attempt without anti's??
 
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Suicide_friend

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Feb 22, 2019
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He didn't mentioned about the anti's, I think he is already sleeping. Rest in peace.
 
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Redt2go

Redt2go

flower child
Jan 5, 2019
1,643
Really sad that you had to do this scared and alone. I'm sorry no one was online to tell you goodbye ❤️❤️ I hope everything is peaceful on your end and as always you're welcome back judgement free if things don't work out
 
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est0091

Dead behind the eyes
Oct 26, 2018
32
He didn't mentioned about the anti's, I think he is already sleeping. Rest in peace.
It does say in the SN megathread that anti's may not always be needed for this method. Which leads me to ask what exactly DMSO is and what it does?
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
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I hope it was painless.
 
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Philip

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Oct 23, 2018
318
Really sad that you had to do this scared and alone. I'm sorry no one was online to tell you goodbye ❤️❤️ I hope everything is peaceful on your end and as always you're welcome back judgement free if things don't work out
This made me tear up....
 
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Vaughn

Vaughn

Experienced
Feb 21, 2019
227
Did Latergator take sleeping pills with his... HE DRANK,, and not rubbed on his skin, so he will really get the full effect.... I hope there are no throwing up.....it has been three hours now - he is gone !
 
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leaps

FUNERAL
Jan 16, 2019
250
Rip
 
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AhG

AhG

La vie est tout sauf un rêve
Jan 24, 2019
313
Hope all your suffering is gone. Peace be with you
 
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Minudah

Minudah

Stupid
Dec 3, 2018
1,355
Wow, lasted maybe ten minutes. I hope I have time to put the utensils away when I do this tonight

Rest in peace
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
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Hope he had easy passing.
 
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Feb 23, 2019
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Cookiedough8956

Wowzers
Feb 24, 2019
636
Oh man :(.

I hope ur passing was peaceful
Goodbye
Rest in Peace
No more pain you're free :)
 
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Sickman75

Swing On The Spiral
Jan 27, 2019
572
Wow

.I hope you are in a peaceful state rest in peace
 
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Philip

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Oct 23, 2018
318
It hurts my heart that the last thing he said was he was laying there scared. :aw:
 
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Redt2go

flower child
Jan 5, 2019
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It hurts my heart that the last thing he said was he was laying there scared. :aw:
Same that will stick with me for a while :(.
 
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Cookiedough8956

Wowzers
Feb 24, 2019
636
It hurts my heart that the last thing he said was he was laying there scared. :aw:
I know..its awful :( i really hope he didn't have to go thru too much pain. He doesn't deserve it
 
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Vaughn

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Feb 21, 2019
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OMG, I just read his "cliff notes' poor chap he suffered so much in this life -
 
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