About to CTB

[bleedthefreak]

Haven't eaten since midnight( 14:30 now) except some saltines. Took dramamine and ginger for vomiting. Took a bunch of benzos so I'm loopy. Going to lie leaning forward in my bathtub when I dose to make sure I'm dead because the N might not immediately kill me but it will knock me out. Got tunes playing on my speaker and headphones, wish I had the chance to curate the Playlist better, but whatever.
Still kind of nauseous but I always am so ill just have to push through.

If you hear from me today or tomorrow, I pussied out. If you hear from me in a few weeks for months, I'm fucked.

Doing my best to wipe any correspondence with this sub or D.

Keep on chooglin

 

[lostmylove]

Interesting. I thought about doing N in the bath too. Is your reason for doing it because you want it to look natural by drowning?

Remember the onset of N might be very fast like 2 mins especially if had benzos.

Have you took benzos to remove si?

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I wish you the best in whatever happens and I hope you find what you are looking for.

 

[meetapple]

I am sorry that life has brought you to this point. May you be at peace whatever happens.

 

[bleedthefreak]

Interesting. I thought about doing N in the bath too. Is your reason for doing it because you want it to look natural by drowning?

Remember the onset of N might be very fast like 2 mins especially if had benzos.

Have you took benzos to remove si?

Idgaf about looking natural. It would be nice to not be put on a blacklist for suicide options should I survive, but precautions are not worth thr trouble. I just want a failsafe if the N doesn't do thr job beyond sedation

Some people take N on the gallows but I don't have the skill for that

Yeah the game is to get it down and keep it down in time. But even if I only get 25% dose that should knock me out so I can drown.

Yeah I'm popping them like candy rn to stop thinking too hard about things and pylsyche
myself out. I'd do alcohol too, but vomit

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I hope you find the peace you deserve.

 

[Red Scare]

I also thought about the bath, but there's no way that will look natural. Nobody just drowns in their bathtub, an autopsy would certainly reveal evidence of drug overdose.

I decided against this though, because I don't want my body to be found all waterlogged and gross in a couple days. That would be very traumatic for the staff and my family. I also don't want to be found with a bag or anything on my head. People with tolerance to barbs have overdosed on as little as 2g. I'll be drinking the full 200ml and then lying in bed to wait for it to take effect.

I don't want to say good luck or anything, I wouldn't ever encourage anyone to commit suicide. Just know if you do back out, it's no big deal. We're here for you.

 

[Riddle]

I didn't think of the bathtub, I was thinking of chilling in a partial suspension until I nodded out if that was possible. The bathtub is not a bad idea though, I also think the bag is a decent option if you can stand to keep it on or time it just right to get it on before you pass out. Either way, I will definitely be implementing a failsafe as well to ensure I don't wake up from a coma a week later brain dead or something.

I am sorry to hear you are going though. Just know that there is no shame in backing out and absolutely no one will judge you for it since we all understand how difficult it is to actually go through with it. Also if you are under 21 with no physical health issues I urge you to please reconsider

If you do go through with it, I do wish you good luck and a peaceful transition