About to be kicked out

[Snatsbats]

So my mother said that i need to go out of the house in 3 days. She said i should go stay with my dad. I dont want to go live with my dad. I dont want to burden my dad. Im just a piece of shit. Im lazy and unmotivated and i think im going to off myself this weekend. Ive had enough. My parents dont deserve a leach of a son that doesnt bring them anything and i dont like life the way it is in this modern world.

I have concluded the only option for me is CTB.
Im never going to be happy. Lifes always going to be mostly shit. The things i enjoy are not worth the pain that life brings on a daily basis. Im not cut out for this life. Im to sensitive, ADHD, and introverted. I never had a girlfriend and probably never will. I dont want to be a wage slave so i can buy a house and live lonely untill im old and die naturally. Its just not worth it anymore.

 

[Someone123]

I am sure you area much better person than this, I am sorry that your parents don't make you feel loved the way you deserve to be. Speaking of a wage slave, though, if you did get a job this is a good place to make friends, because you have to constantly communicate about work so you can't help but get to know some people and you could make friends here and life could then get better- once you make friends you could get a girlfriend too. It is your choice what to do, and I am very sorry that your parents don't make you feel more cared about. For now living with your dad could make sense if he is not physically abusive and if any mental abuse might be tolerable for a while. Is there anything positive in your bond with your dad?

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is such a cruel and depressing existence and I know that it can be dreadful being trapped in a life that is just constant misery. I hope that in whatever happens, you find relief from your suffering.

 

[Snatsbats]

I am sure you area much better person than this, I am sorry that your parents don't make you feel loved the way you deserve to be. Speaking of a wage slave, though, if you did get a job this is a good place to make friends, because you have to constantly communicate about work so you can't help but get to know some people and you could make friends here and life could then get better- once you make friends you could get a girlfriend too. It is your choice what to do, and I am very sorry that your parents don't make you feel more cared about. For now living with your dad could make sense if he is not physically abusive and if any mental abuse might be tolerable for a while. Is there anything positive in your bond with your dad?

Thanks for your reply. I am still in college atm. I do have friends. Im just a boring person i dont talk much theres not much to talk about especially with women. I have a good relationship with my dad, but its just such a drastic change. What will my friends and people in my surrounding think. Why am i going to live with my dad. I also dont like to stay long at my dads house. When i was younger and still slept at my dads house a few days a week me and my brother always were in a fight with my stepmom and her stepdaughters, at some point me and my brother stopped going to my dad because of this. My dad never stood up for us. Although it has gotten better and nowadays me and my brother are visiting my dad again i still feel the tension and i just dont like to be around my stephmom. She is super emotional get angry and irritated fast. Is super loud and a real attention seeker.

 

[Someone123]

Thanks for your reply. I am still in college atm. I do have friends. Im just a boring person i dont talk much theres not much to talk about especially with women. I have a good relationship with my dad, but its just such a drastic change. What will my friends and people in my surrounding think. Why am i going to live with my dad. I also dont like to stay long at my dads house. When i was younger and still slept at my dads house a few days a week me and my brother always were in a fight with my stepmom and her stepdaughters, at some point me and my brother stopped going to my dad because of this. My dad never stood up for us. Although it has gotten better and nowadays me and my brother are visiting my dad again i still feel the tension and i just dont like to be around my stephmom. She is super emotional get angry and irritated fast. Is super loud and a real attention seeker.

Ok, it's not an easy situation, I thnk you'll need to crash at your dads for a little while. Learning to taslk to women can be done, I'm sure you're not a boring person- a really good resource is youtibe- if you search by how to talk to women, how to meet women, how to carry on a conversation there will be a lot of excellent videos to help you learn how to do this- do not aqccept the label that you are a boring person, I'm sure it's not true, you just need to learn how to communicate better, which can be done. Once you learn how to work humor and fun into your conversations this will get better. If you accept a lbael like boring you are amking it much more difficult to fix this- it's better to think of yourself as really interesting- everyon e is in my opinion- but you just need to figure out how to communicate in a more interesting way- that's a lot easier problem to solve. The sooner you can get a place with some rommates the better, even if you have to start working or work more to do it, even if this means cutting back to part-time for school or stopping school for a while- you need a place to live without mental abuse. There is hope here in my opinion if you can see it.