“a timely death”

[Lawliet]

about the impact of my impending suicide on others, ive decided to try to hold off on mine until after the holidays despite them being a huge trigger and source of anxiety/pain. i don't want my family to be reminded of my death directly tied to christmas. i wish i could hang on longer so that they won't have to hold my funeral in the cold… i picture people at my graveside freezing their asses off in the january weather and it makes me feel bad.

what are your thoughts on holding off your CTB in relations to the holiday or the weather?

 

[Jack'sWastedLife]

I'm sorry that the holidays are such a bad time for you. I'm waiting until after Christmas as well to give my family one last normal/happy one. I feel like the holidays will probably always be a difficult time afterwards, regardless of being directly connected or not, so I figured I could do one more for them.

I'm weird about the weather; honestly, the thought of burying someone while it's nice and warm and the sun is shining just seems so awful to me. I have yet to have someone share that opinion though. It'll probably be raining and miserable for my funeral, but it's not a factor that's overly important to me.

 

[jodes2]

about the impact of my impending suicide on others, ive decided to try to hold off on mine until after the holidays despite them being a huge trigger and source of anxiety/pain. i don't want my family to be reminded of my death directly tied to christmas. i wish i could hang on longer so that they won't have to hold my funeral in the cold… i picture people at my graveside freezing their asses off in the january weather and it makes me feel bad.

what are your thoughts on holding off your CTB in relations to the holiday or the weather?

I wouldn't care, really. I don't think associations with Xmas would be that strong, and I don't care what weather my funeral is in. What I do worry about is the fact that my gf has noone else besides me and some internet friends she has. She's distanced herself from all her family due to toxicity and if I died, she'd be left very empty. No cuddles, no love, noone to talk to, noone to rely on. I think if I departed she'd be quite devastated for a long time. Even if I did it on Xmas day it wouldn't make a difference

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally think that everyday of the year is a great day to die on. I get that it can be difficult for many people when they are leaving others behind, but it is irrational to think about others reactions and them going to a funeral, as after all we won't be there at that point. The dead have no concerns or worries and grief and loss are simply an inevitable consequence of bringing life here.

As humans we will all die anyway eventually and someday we likely won't even exist in the memories of others. And I could personally never prolong my suffering only for the sake of others, if I had N I would leave this world as soon as possible. Only the difficulty of actually going through with suicide is what holds me back.

 

[exhaustedanonymous]

what are your thoughts on holding off your CTB in relations to the holiday or the weather?

I've decided, not the month of January because that's my important girl's birthday month, but before/after I don't care. But then again, my family doesn't really celebrate holidays anyway.