A real moment

[JFED]

Sorry to take up space on the board but I just had the most real moment.

I passed a mirror, looked directly into it and said to myself "they'll miss you but they never gave a fuck while you were alive".

I've found acceptance. I've readied myself for the next stages. Peace comes soon.

I thank you all for your existence and support. You are all more than you know. Thank you

 

[ghost_]

I wish for you all the best

 

[BeautifulMosaics]

Never apologise for taking up space even on a message board. You had a profound moment where you accepted the next stage of your journey - it's impactful even if you change your mind later. I have also felt the same about my family (I assume you're talking about), and funnily enough I had that same type of epiphany and acceptance of death just last week. It was very powerful.

Your post was kind and made me smile When thinking of killing yourself and wondering why you exist in the first place it's nice to be thanked for simply existing lol.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best with your plans. I imagine it must be a relief to have accepted your decision. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[JFED]

Somehow I managed to stay here. Living. I still think about CTB daily.

Made worse now because my only friend was murdered this past week.

 

[letmejoindeath]

Somehow I managed to stay here. Living. I still think about CTB daily.

Made worse now because my only friend was murdered this past week.

I want a Time Machine not so I can stop myself from making mistakes, but so I could kill myself the day I was born.

The only thing I think about is relief and not existing. Not sure why I even care if I leave people hanging and just go now.

 

[itsraining]

Somehow I managed to stay here. Living. I still think about CTB daily.

Made worse now because my only friend was murdered this past week.

I'm so sorry for your loss, the world is such a cruel and unjust place