Discussion A couple of questions for people who attempted to hang themselves

[royaltybabee03]

What exactly did it feel like for you and how long did it take to pass out? I've been trying partial for a while and all I get is this exploding head feeling and discomfort. I never felt close to passing out before I'm definitely doing something wrong. This is probably the way I'll go out as I'm too much of a pussy to attempt any other method
If you tried full suspension how much courage did it take to go the whole way? Did you hesitate or was it a quick decision


Also if you failed, how did it happen and what mistakes did you make?

 

[Surai]

Ive only attempted but partially. I did get this pressure around my head and this strong urge to breath but I didnt go enough to make me pass out.

 

[Realgar]

What exactly did it feel like for you and how long did it take to pass out? I've been trying partial for a while and all I get is this exploding head feeling and discomfort. I never felt close to passing out before I'm definitely doing something wrong. This is probably the way I'll go out as I'm too much of a pussy to attempt any other method
If you tried full suspension how much courage did it take to go the whole way? Did you hesitate or was it a quick decision


Also if you failed, how did it happen and what mistakes did you make?

Yes, I am curious also. I would like to attempt partial, but arrange it so that if it hurts too much I can take the noose off and abort. Do not want to die in great pain. Quick and painless and in control the entire time, so I can stop if I want to.

 

[westerly_merlin]

What exactly did it feel like for you and how long did it take to pass out? I've been trying partial for a while and all I get is this exploding head feeling and discomfort. I never felt close to passing out before I'm definitely doing something wrong. This is probably the way I'll go out as I'm too much of a pussy to attempt any other method
If you tried full suspension how much courage did it take to go the whole way? Did you hesitate or was it a quick decision


Also if you failed, how did it happen and what mistakes did you make?

I tried full suspension with a 10mm climbing rope. It was really painful and after a few seconds the SI kicked in and because I was near a wall I could haul myself up and relieve the pressure. I think that the will to live was much stronger than the wish to CTB.

I think I made a mistake with the knot round my neck, I started with a running bowline but then switched it out to a carabiner so it would tighten more easily. Reading round the subject I think that a successful hanging is more about pressure on the carotid arteries than restricting air through the windpipe.

The rope was fastened to two roof trusses in my garage and I did look into a long drop method but the shock load of my 85kg body dropping 2m could have dislodged the truss and pulled the roof down on me.

If I try again I might pad the front of the rope with a piece of cloth to ease the pressure on my windpipe but make sure there is pressure on my arteries.

I had a nasty bruise round my neck for a couple of weeks as well.

 

[AreWeWinning]

I think I made a mistake with the knot round my neck, I started with a running bowline but then switched it out to a carabiner so it would tighten more easily. Reading round the subject I think that a successful hanging is more about pressure on the carotid arteries than restricting air through the windpipe.

Why was switching from a Running Bowline to a carabiner a mistake? As far as I'm aware, both should work.

 

[Off_Switch]

Ive only attempted but partially. I did get this pressure around my head and this strong urge to breath but I didnt go enough to make me pass out.

Were you intoxicated?

 

[westerly_merlin]

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Why was switching from a Running Bowline to a carabiner a mistake? As far as I'm aware, both should work.

It was a big carabiner, one I used for belaying when I started climbing.

Ironically the rope was my old "wall rope" which I retired as unsafe because the sheath was worn. I have made dog leads from one of the ends.

 

[sizzurp]

1 thing i know for sure is doing it while drunk will definitely lower your SI and the pain. i have attempted partial both sober and drunk and i csn tell you it felt way more difficult and painful when i was sober

 

[tend a dead garden]

I had tried hanging on it's own but found that although painful i could endure it to a certain point but then my "will to live" kicked in and i would either put my feet on the support "back up" or cut the rope with a sharp knife i had in case i changed my mind.
When i made what i regard as my most serious attempt from which i am perplexed as to how i survived i had hanging as a "back up".
As in i had a noose round my neck (standard hangmans knot), had taken enough opiates to equal around 2000mg of morphine ( 80mg oxycontin tablets with broken slow realise) and also a plastic bag over head with an elastic band so when the opiates and valium ( 200mg) kicked in i would basically slip off the chair, the noose would tighten and the bag would pull tight.
As an "escape" i had a knife on a cord round my neck.
All i recall was blackness surging up, but then awoke on the floor some hours later with the rope off my neck and the bag cut.
The knife was on the floor next to me.
I from that doubted that i could be alive as i thought it was full proof method. This doubt that i was/am not in-fact alive has remained to varying levels since.
I have no idea of how I'm still alive tbh, i know i have a big tolerance to the opiates and benzos from over 20 plus years being on them but the amounts did render me unconscious but in the last moments some unconscious urge/will to live must have kicked in.
I am ambivalent about the outcome.