Venting A Ballad of Uselessness

[C:/]

My Dad told me he is going to communicate with me less because through contact I have been making him depressed, and that I'm the thing that worries him the most (he's a business owner)

This is through my actions. He doesn't even know I'm suicidal or still struggling, he believes I'm just lazy and undisciplined.

I've accepted I'm a piece of human garbage. I used to cry when we have these talks, but all I could feel is dissapointment and anger in myself.

I'm a failure.

 

[bunn1bel]

I don't know what your relationship with your dad is like, but is he a safe person to open up about your depression to?

 

[Already Gone now]

What you've told all of us reminds me of the screwed up relationship with my own mother. I can only imagine where your mind is right now. Distance helps with people sometimes. I hope you can find a balance to things in your life, it all can be very difficult... As I'm sure you know. If you want someone to vent to, I can be a listening person if you want. I hope you gain a better understanding of your situation. Things can and will be rough, but I hope you get by all of this

 

[WorthlessCoward]

Yeah my grandma used to be like that, every time I tried to talk about some heavy subject she always said "You're gonna make me sick" (as in being so sick she's gonna die) the only things you could talk with her were the things she liked like cheap gossip

Worthless fucking bitch

 

[Already Gone now]

What you've told all of us reminds me of the screwed up relationship with my own mother. I can only imagine where your mind is right now. Distance helps with people sometimes. I hope you can find a balance to things in your life, it all can be very difficult... As I'm sure you know. If you want someone to vent to, I can be a listening person if you want. I hope you gain a better understanding of your situation. Things can and will be rough, but I hope you get by all of this

And I wanted to add that you're not a solo failure. We all fail from time to time, no one wins all the time. It's okay to loose sometime. I guess it's a matter of how you look at things in life.

Yeah my grandma used to be like that, every time I tried to talk about some heavy subject she always said "You're gonna make me sick" (as in being so sick she's gonna die) the only things you could talk with her were the things she liked like cheap gossip

Worthless fucking bitch

Whoa, damn... I too have known people like that

 

[bunn1bel]

Yeah my grandma used to be like that, every time I tried to talk about some heavy subject she always said "You're gonna make me sick" (as in being so sick she's gonna die) the only things you could talk with her were the things she liked like cheap gossip

Worthless fucking bitch

Yeah my own father says similar. That I'll give him a heart attack. "You can't say things like that to me, you know my heart isn't good" Okay i won't say these things to you ever again :)

 

[WorthlessCoward]

Yeah my own father says similar. That I'll give him a heart attack. "You can't say things like that to me, you know my heart isn't good" Okay i won't say these things to you ever again :)

Really nice people, the best you could ask for. At least my mom has a more practical way of dealing with this: she just blanky stares at me and then turns around and leaves without saying a word. What a cool mom.