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Intelligent_Panic99

Intelligent_Panic99

Student
Jan 4, 2022
114
90 more days until ctb. For various reasons it can't be before that. It feels so inevitable and at the same time I wish I could stop time. I thought so a long time it was choice I was making. But now it feels just like I'm caught in a current. I don't think I have a choice.
 
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Cryptonite

Cryptonite

In the state of shock of what happened
Apr 30, 2022
722
90 more days until ctb. For various reasons it can't be before that. It feels so inevitable and at the same time I wish I could stop time. I thought so a long time it was choice I was making. But now it feels just like I'm caught in a current. I don't think I have a choice.
What's your method?
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,115
Do you have it all planned out? Anyone gonna be hurt? No guilt?
 
Intelligent_Panic99

Intelligent_Panic99

Student
Jan 4, 2022
114
Do you have it all planned out? Anyone gonna be hurt? No guilt?
All planned. Yes, people will be hurt but it's a better of two evils scenario. I am going to cause more damage by staying.

I don't have guilt just a whole lot of sadness. I truly feel as though I don't a choice. I've tried to find someone who can help fix my brain but it's just not possible. No one wants to or can.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,991
I hope you find peace and relief from suffering in whatever happens. I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you, it must be so unbearable being in such a hopeless situation.
 
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Sunset Limited

Sunset Limited

I believe in Sunset Limited
Jul 29, 2019
1,356
Same here. I will CTB in mid-August. I hope you can find peace.
 
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