7 months ago, everything was ok

[wendydong1]

Just going through life like a mouse on the wheel. Work, dog, sleep....

Just 7 months, how things changed.

I experienced happiness, love, no matter how fake they are, then pain, anger, shame, despair...

Just 7 months

 

[oxymoron]

10 months ago, everything was ok.

 

[azucaramargo]

Just going through life like a mouse on the wheel. Work, dog, sleep....

Just 7 months, how things changed.

I experienced happiness, love, no matter how fake they are, then pain, anger, shame, despair...

Just 7 months

I love you, wendydong1.

 

[wendydong1]

10 months ago, everything was ok.

What happened to you 10 months ago?

 

[Wayfaerer]

That was just like me, except 16 months ago. I went from feeling the best and most functional I've ever felt as an adult to the worst dysfunctional train wreck you could possibly imagine. My mood has always been consistent(ly shit) throughout my life and it took a lot for this to have happened. I thought I was finally out of it after years and years of torment but nope, the living nightmare hadn't even began yet until then.

 

[oxymoron]

What happened to you 10 months ago?

Life.

 

[blanketyblk]

I know this feeling. one day your life suddenly changes and becomes a living hell. i had the same thing happen to me. but mine was 9 years ago. hugs..

 

[Soulless_Angel]

First Week of April something in me snapped, my first serious mental breakdown, it's been downhill from then on, Now I wear a mask and fight to get to the end of each day

 

[Empty Smile]

I can't remember exactly when everything went wrong, but it hasn't went back to anything good since.

 

[Painpleasure]

Unfortunately the only certain thing is life is that it is uncertain.

Devastatingly horrible circumstances can befall even the noblest and virtuous men in a matter of seconds.

 

[Blackjack]

Yep, 8 months ago for me. Although I instinctively knew something was "wrong" months before that. Just never imagined how horrific it would all turn out to be.

 

[Kiwi]

8 months ago for me maybe 9.

 

[justanotherday]

Just going through life like a mouse on the wheel. Work, dog, sleep....

Just 7 months, how things changed.

I experienced happiness, love, no matter how fake they are, then pain, anger, shame, despair...

Just 7 months

To me life is just one big rinse, repeat, ect....
And yes, things can change( good or bad) in an instant. My life used to be good.

 

[oxymoron]

To me life is just one big rinse, repeat, ect....
And yes, things can change( good or bad) in an instant. My life used to be good.

Same. Used to be fucking good.

 

[Dawn0071111]

16 months ago everything was ok...

 

[Sunset Limited]

Before born everything was ok.

 

[SickSadWorld]

5 months ago I was ok. it was bearable. I never knew it could be such a nightmare as this. I wish I could go back. I couldn't afford this breakdown at this time in my life.

 

[hatelife]

Before born everything was ok.

exactly, being born in a family were the father abuses the daughter, u cant grow up normal

 

[FeelingSinister]

That was just like me, except 16 months ago. I went from feeling the best and most functional I've ever felt as an adult to the worst dysfunctional train wreck you could possibly imagine. My mood has always been consistent(ly shit) throughout my life and it took a lot for this to have happened. I thought I was finally out of it after years and years of torment but nope, the living nightmare hadn't even began yet until then.

Same here! Before April this year, I was having the best period of my life. I can say I was happy for the first time and that my emotions reflected my reaction to the world rather than being simply a constant mirror of my pain and self-hatred. That was happiness for me. Knowing how it feels to be normal actually pushed me to the edge when the next depressive episode came. Living in that hell simply didn't seem acceptable anymore. Been suicidal since then and I have no idea how I could ever turn back to not being suicidal.

 

[Final Escape]

First Week of April something in me snapped, my first serious mental breakdown, it's been downhill from then on, Now I wear a mask and fight to get to the end of each day

I've had many mental breakdowns over the years. You can sort of get through them when you are young but then it seems to get worse and more frequent as u get older.

 

[seekingoblivion]

13 years ago everything was okay....mostly.

 

[woxihuanni]

It's never been OK, but considering the circumstances, I've been OK.

Honestly, even now, somebody else in my place could be lashing out and burning the world around them instead of picking their poison and looking for a chance to speak.

 

[OnlyMercy]

10 years ago most of life was bearable. Yet here I am today...

You have to take the good with the bad, love what you have remember what you had.

At the end, if your current situation is deemed untenable and unbearable, perhaps put a halt on your plans to end your life. At the end, we will all die anyway.

 

[Kodama]

ust going through life like a mouse on the wheel. Work, dog, sleep....

Just 7 months, how things changed.

I experienced happiness, love, no matter how fake they are, then pain, anger, shame, despair...

Just 7 months

Exactly the same for me :/

 

[Mloureiro]

6 months ago everything was not perfect but fine but then everything bad started to happen. This year has been the worst of my life, I have not received a good news in such a long time. And tired of hearing that this all will pass, that nothing lasts forever, bla bla bla. Just so tired