3 Months Out.

[leavingsoon99]

I'll be gone by summer's end. I'll be dead. My only regret is that I didn't do this sooner. I held to hope. Hope just keeps me in the rat race. Hope lies. It tries to flash images of the life I wish I had in order to make me struggle more. Life thrives off of struggle and suffering. It's why alcohol is a necessity. It's why drugs are a necessity. It's why sports is a convenient distraction. Dreams are for the sleeping. Hope is for the hopeless.

Life is not worth living. At all.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

So, what are you going to do for yourself over the next few months until that fateful day arrives? Any special plans? Is there anything you enjoy on this earth at all? Sometimes it might only be something really simple, which is perfectly alright. I mean, you have a few months to kill, might as well do something, right?

 

[leavingsoon99]

So, what are you going to do for yourself over the next few months until that fateful day arrives? Any special plans? Is there anything you enjoy on this earth at all? Sometimes it might only be something really simple, which is perfectly alright. I mean, you have a few months to kill, might as well do something, right?

Art. Fine dining. Music.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Art. Fine dining. Music.

That all sounds great. Live it up. I guess there are a few things on this earth worth enjoying (at least).

 

[Zegers]

Probably the end of summer -September- is when the train arrives at the station.

I wish you the best with it, what is your method?

 

[leavingsoon99]

Probably the end of summer -September- is when the train arrives at the station.

I wish you the best with it, what is your method?

Gun.

I wish you the same.

 

[Letgo]

Enjoy your time meanwhile. Good luck with your plans.

 

[lebrodude]

I'm getting to the stage where I now have a tentative date.
Got two weeks off work in October, it just feels then will be my time.

I wish you luck in whatever you do.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's true that in this horrible world hope is just a delusion to inevitably lead to more suffering once one is forced to confront reality, there is no relief from suffering as long as one exists here, existence truly is something hopeless, I agree that existence could never be worth it. I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[The anhedonic one]

My date is going to be on the autumn equinox.
This is because my mental illness always worsens around Autumn time. And I find something symbolic about doing it on that particular day.
Life is definitely not worth living, and never has been.
I greatly look forward to my imminent self-destruction.