remunerated_exetrix
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- Mar 31, 2026
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I am going to fail soon.
I'm not sure why I think this. I don't have to fail, but everything since then has just been failure after failure. Then I go away for awhile. I fade into nothing, talking to no one and leaving everything behind, further ruining the situation I am already in. I am lagging behind. I am already stunted in my progression of life. I know I shouldn't compare myself to other people, but at this point, I must be realistic with myself. I don't have any future for myself, nor am I giving it my all to make something for myself. I don't need to be some rocket scientist, but I definitely don't want to be working entry level jobs for the rest of my life wanting to end it all. That will definitely accelerate the ending of me.
I want to be better. I want to make my parents proud. I want them to see me succeed. It's just that once I achieve that goal, I will have nothing again. I will have achieve that only for them, not for myself. It might make me happy, sure. But I wonder "what if it doesn't?" What if I did all of this for nothing. If I am going to kill myself either way, why put up a fight that I know I'm going to lose?
This is just weakness and laziness. I will probably feel a lot better if I'm doing better for myself. I crave accomplishment, but don't want to put the work in to do it. I am just wallowing in my own sadness blaming everything around me for my inability to succeed. Some of it is not my fault, sure; but I must take responsibility for the things I do have control over. No one ruined my life except for myself. To someone on the outside, it almost seems like I wanted this for myself. It's all I do. I only do the worst for myself and them blame the environment around me for the lack of success. While that does play a role, it is something I could overcome. Like I said before, I don't need to be some billionaire genius, I want to be comfortable. That is not some impossible task to do, and with my low standards, it is very achievable. I'm just too lazy and weak to do the thing I want for myself. That is my fault. It's all my fault. I am weak. I am a loser. I suck. I am pitiful. I am worthless. I should just kill myself.
You really are the saddest human-being I have ever laid on my eyes on. I mean, come on. Are you fucking serious? Grow up. There is no one here to hold your hand. Pick yourself up and do something with yourself, and if not, die. You are burdening the people around you with your weakness, spreading it like a disease. At this point, your just a resource consumer that turns money into shit. How do you not feel guilty for the lack of improvement on your own life? Please, I would love to know. Truly pathetic. You are you own worst enemy, and the worst part about it is that you know this, can acknowledge that, and see a way out, and yet, you are still this worthless, miserable piece of human garbage. What will it take? What needs to happen in order for you to take responsibility for your own life and improve it? What perfect world needs to be created around you in order for you to have a chance? Please enlighten me. Oh, you could have everything and still be sad? Give me a fucking break. You don't deserve to have anything. You should have less than what you have right now, you ungrateful piece of shit. You are truly the person I hate the most. I hate you. Please, do us all the favor. End it.
Love you. <3
I'm not sure why I think this. I don't have to fail, but everything since then has just been failure after failure. Then I go away for awhile. I fade into nothing, talking to no one and leaving everything behind, further ruining the situation I am already in. I am lagging behind. I am already stunted in my progression of life. I know I shouldn't compare myself to other people, but at this point, I must be realistic with myself. I don't have any future for myself, nor am I giving it my all to make something for myself. I don't need to be some rocket scientist, but I definitely don't want to be working entry level jobs for the rest of my life wanting to end it all. That will definitely accelerate the ending of me.
I want to be better. I want to make my parents proud. I want them to see me succeed. It's just that once I achieve that goal, I will have nothing again. I will have achieve that only for them, not for myself. It might make me happy, sure. But I wonder "what if it doesn't?" What if I did all of this for nothing. If I am going to kill myself either way, why put up a fight that I know I'm going to lose?
This is just weakness and laziness. I will probably feel a lot better if I'm doing better for myself. I crave accomplishment, but don't want to put the work in to do it. I am just wallowing in my own sadness blaming everything around me for my inability to succeed. Some of it is not my fault, sure; but I must take responsibility for the things I do have control over. No one ruined my life except for myself. To someone on the outside, it almost seems like I wanted this for myself. It's all I do. I only do the worst for myself and them blame the environment around me for the lack of success. While that does play a role, it is something I could overcome. Like I said before, I don't need to be some billionaire genius, I want to be comfortable. That is not some impossible task to do, and with my low standards, it is very achievable. I'm just too lazy and weak to do the thing I want for myself. That is my fault. It's all my fault. I am weak. I am a loser. I suck. I am pitiful. I am worthless. I should just kill myself.
You really are the saddest human-being I have ever laid on my eyes on. I mean, come on. Are you fucking serious? Grow up. There is no one here to hold your hand. Pick yourself up and do something with yourself, and if not, die. You are burdening the people around you with your weakness, spreading it like a disease. At this point, your just a resource consumer that turns money into shit. How do you not feel guilty for the lack of improvement on your own life? Please, I would love to know. Truly pathetic. You are you own worst enemy, and the worst part about it is that you know this, can acknowledge that, and see a way out, and yet, you are still this worthless, miserable piece of human garbage. What will it take? What needs to happen in order for you to take responsibility for your own life and improve it? What perfect world needs to be created around you in order for you to have a chance? Please enlighten me. Oh, you could have everything and still be sad? Give me a fucking break. You don't deserve to have anything. You should have less than what you have right now, you ungrateful piece of shit. You are truly the person I hate the most. I hate you. Please, do us all the favor. End it.
Love you. <3
