RealLostSoul
once rock bottom, always rock bottom
- Oct 11, 2019
- 211
So yea happy new year to everyone. Fucking 2020 is here and I would have never thought that. It feels unreal. I'm currently reminiscing about the past and I definitely see that with each year that was going by things got a little bit worse. 2017 was not so bad as 2018 which was worse and 2019 was hell. I will give life one last fucking chance this year. I will try to get the surgery I need. I will give my best to achieve something better and be happy again but it is mostly up to destiny, fate, it is out of my control. If I am not supposed to be here then this is it. I can't see myself living with this condition another full year. I am tired and sick of life. However I am not giving up yet but it is most likely going to be up to fate. we will see.
I hope things turn to a better for y'all out there and if you decide to go this year, I hope you find what you were searching for in death.
I hope things turn to a better for y'all out there and if you decide to go this year, I hope you find what you were searching for in death.