Venting 18 and just wanting to die

[LeeHooni]

Maybe i do have a long time to well, see what life has to offer, but truly, i don't see a future where i'll be happy. I'm autistic and this world isn't build with people like me in mind. Ive been lonely all life, been betrayed so many times, been groomed, and so much more than i could write a whole 10h documentary about my life when i even barely lived yet. I feel so tired. Every day is a walking nightmare and i don't know how much longers i can keep up with it. The only reason that i'm still alive is just that the only people that i love aren't dead yet. I'm sure there is a lot of people like me that can relate, but it does truly feel lonely at times. Seeing all the people around me having close friends, a somewhat stable mental state and doing well in university where as i am just, struggling everyday to just get out of bed. Truly what a beautiful world we live in.

 

[Anonymousa]

I am autistic and in my early 20s and I feel like that too. I don't see how anything will make my life better and people will often leave me soon after becoming "friends" with them. Every day is just tiring and exhausting.

 

[LeeHooni]

I am autistic and in my early 20s and I feel like that too. I don't see how anything will make my life better and people will often leave me soon after becoming "friends" with them. Every day is just tiring and exhausting.

I can relate to what you are saying, if you get too close to people they either use you and leave, or just leave you the moment they found someone else. It truly just feel like you are replacable and that you will never be enough. It truly just feel like a endless cycle and it's truly tiring.

 

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Spero che tu possa trovare la pace che stai cercando
e avere una terapia cognitivo-comportamentale indolore

 

[drag201]

Im in the same boat as you. Almost 20 and I just want to die. I get why people say that there's still plenty left to live but personally i really don't want that. I wish I could die young so I can free myself from so many unnecessary decades of living miserably. I haven't done anything yet for the same reasons as you(loved ones)Im sorry you feel this way, life is too cruel