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[montimoo]

Venting ig
I feel so horrible. I have BPD and every waking moment is torment to me if I'm not daydreaming to the point I'm barely here. I'm not sure how posting here works or how to tag things :( I'm a law student and feel the loneliness crushing me and have recently lost a lot that's dear to me. I feel so alone and so horrible. I feel so worthless and far behind. I've just entered my 20s and am already failing so hard. I just want it all to stop, and to stop feeling so lost and behind. Im in physical pain every day due to my emotions and I'm not sure how I've made it this far. I can't do this anymore

 

[MusicEnjoyer:D]

Here you will find a lot of people with similar strugles.

I hope you find the peace you deserve.

 

[montimoo]

Here you will find a lot of people with similar strugles.

I hope you find the peace you deserve.

I just want acceptance. I'm trying so hard to find ways around it bc I think I'm sort of afraid to die, but feel like there's no other option to get out of this horrible constant feeling of crushing thoughts and emotions.

 

[MusicEnjoyer:D]

I just want acceptance. I'm trying so hard to find ways around it bc I think I'm sort of afraid to die, but feel like there's no other option to get out of this horrible constant feeling of crushing thoughts and emotions.

Dying is an option. And a lot of us have been pushed to the point of seriously considering it as the best solution here. Your not crazy for thinking about it.

 

[inmyhead]

Fellow BPD sufferer here and I know how you feel. Every day is a hellish battle and I don't want to be like this for the rest of my life. I hope you find peace, whatever they may be.

 

[SpiderLink]

I just want acceptance. I'm trying so hard to find ways around it bc I think I'm sort of afraid to die, but feel like there's no other option to get out of this horrible constant feeling of crushing thoughts and emotions.

I feel every word u just said, you're not alone in feeling this way. I too have BPD, it's hell

 

[montimoo]

Fellow BPD sufferer here and I know how you feel. Every day is a hellish battle and I don't want to be like this for the rest of my life. I hope you find peace, whatever they may be.

It just doesn't seem to get better

I feel every word u just said, you're not alone in feeling this way. I too have BPD, it's hell

It's literally just a constant battle of cycling through tu all. I'm so tired of living like this

 

[inmyhead]

It just doesn't seem to get better

It's literally just a constant battle of cycling through tu all. I'm so tired of living like this

If it helps, I went through some really intensive therapy that helped me handle relationships and conflict. It was called mentalisation based therapy. But then Covid happened and I ended up right back where I started.

 

[montimoo]

If it helps, I went through some really intensive therapy that helped me handle relationships and conflict. It was called mentalisation based therapy. But then Covid happened and I ended up right back where I started.

I don't think I want help anymore. I've been trying for a decade now and it hasn't seemed to do anything

 

[inmyhead]

I don't think I want help anymore. I've been trying for a decade now and it hasn't seemed to do anything

Oh I know how you feel. That's exactly where I am. And everywhere you look there's stigma about this disease so I can't be bothered fighting it anymore

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so awful and exhausting what you've been through, existing certainly is so torturous but anyway I wish you the best and I hope that you eventually find freedom from your suffering.