Discussion 1 year for a better life? or CTB? If you had the option between CTB and getting your life together, which would you choose?

[shironeko]

Don't think a year can bring everything I lost back to me.
And it would only be more painful.

 

[ccake]

Yeah nevermind, 2 months after making this post I really started getting it together. Just for it to all come crashing down and for life to become significantly worse than it already was before. This is the 9th time this has happened and I think I'm ready to just call it quits. I need to make a note soon and find a reliable method. I'm dedicating my life to ending it and I really hope I will be able to actually make an attempt soon. I've been stalling for too long.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i don't want anything from this evil life and evil world. what i want is to escape life and reach non-existence asap

i didn't ask to be brought into this nightmare. why would i want to condone the imposition by wanting to partake in meaningless addictions of an imposition prison slavery torture?

i don't see there being an objective reason why I should want to live another minute in this hell just to get old , to risk extreme torture to work 15 hours a day a job chores to do lists .... for what reason? for what ???????there is no objective reason

we all will die anyway so why should i prolong my suffering and work so hard every day getting old risking extreme torture? i don't see a reason. to me life is meaningless torture

in 130 years nothing will matter , every one of the 8 billion humans alive now will be dead in 130 years

 

[RiverOfLife]

For me I would try, I just don't know if I'd have the energy to

This! I would like to try, but I have no energy and my previous efforts to get my life together have had very limited success.

 

[ccake]

This! I would like to try, but I have no energy and my previous efforts to get my life together have had very limited success.

yeah well you can see in my newest reply to this that i'm in an even deeper hole now lol, maybe giving it 1 more time but im not sure. i might ctb at disney land soon

 

[broken_stoic]

I spent the past 10-12 years putting my life back together, then it all came apart. Don't have it in my to do it again. If I only had to go through 5-7 months with an assured outcome that life would be great? That would barely register as a cost to me, would do that in a heartbeat.

 

[ccake]

I spent the past 10-12 years putting my life back together, then it all came apart. Don't have it in my to do it again. If I only had to go through 5-7 months with an assured outcome that life would be great? That would barely register as a cost to me, would do that in a heartbeat.

exactly what happens to me every time

 

[broken_stoic]

exactly what happens to me every time

It's a bitch. Helps if you have something to hold onto or look forwards to. I did, but this time around I lost it.

 

[skatergirl]

Yeah, I can't even look at myself after all I've done. I am awful and disgusting.

If my roommate wasn't an asshole than I would've drank my sn. But thanks to him, it's gone.

Did he ctb with it?

 

[demitriusmigsysvotf]

Did he ctb with it?

nuh uh, the thought its drugs

 

[DeathFool]

Nah I am done with this life thing

 

[NoPoint2Life]

Ctb. Tbh i've never been one to put a lot of effort into anything. Besides, the world is going to shit anyway - why stick around?

 

[ccake]

Ctb. Tbh i've never been one to put a lot of effort into anything. Besides, the world is going to shit anyway - why stick around?

idk theres fun things to do i guess

 

[CatLvr]

I'm old enough to have learned that, at least for me, the moments of happiness help make up for the moments of misery, so I would absolutely LOVE to get my shit together and spend what little life I have left being happy.

I'm trying several different things to try and "buffer" myself from the bad so I don't drop so far down the hole when it happens. You guys have made it possible for me to do this because y'all don't judge me, or try to fix me like a therapist has always done. You just hold my hand and support me. And I love you all more than you know for that. Please know that if I can help any one of you guys even half as much as you have helped me, all you have to do is ask. I'll hold your hand as long as you need me to.