Story Zi’s Diary, entry 9

[Chuuya-Chan ⋆. 𐙚˚]

If you've been following along to my journal you will have known that the last few days, especially in my 7th entry that I was having a rough time.

But since than I can see the light at the end of the tunnel so to speak.

I woke up to my sister, it was so cold last night and she's been having a tough time so we had a little sleepover in my bed. I wanted to wake up earlier , around 7:30 but turns out I was still productive without waking up so early.


I remember struggling to get out of bed at first but was so excited to straighten my hair I was able to over come it and take a shower.

I straightened my hair about a week ago and this is my second time…it turned out kinda weird…and not very semetrical.

But I brushed it off and had my session with my counselor.

I ended up doing my homework outside in the sun since the house had been keeping in the cold so it was nice.

After I finished that I want back inside to finish straightening my hair, my hairs grown a lot and my bangs are kinda weird so I decided to cut them.

Not a total fail…

I decided to try curtain bangs but one side of my bangs was thicker while the other was thinner, can't win at everything I guess.

I took a walk after I put the cake batter in the instapot. I decided to walk for thirty minutes while it cooked and everything was so chill until the last 10 minutes.

I hadn't thought about hurting myself in a while but the sudden urge had come over me, perhaps it was because the rest of my family was out running errands and I was really just left to think.

After I checked on the cake I knew I needed to distract myself so I had planned to finish another page of my comic, but I messaged a friend because I couldn't get it off my mind and she ended up calling me so we could talk.


it was really nice honestly, just to have someone to talk to.

I think I'm going to take it one week at a time, I thought it'd be easier to forget that I ever even had that habit because I never went over board or deep but I guess not.

I just like how it feels.

Today was pretty good honestly.

I'm especially looking forward to tomorrow because I'll be able to go out with my bf for a few hours, the other day I had even gotten an idea for a Christmas gift for him but it's still a work in progress!

I think I really enjoyed the slower moments of this day like baking, talking over the phone, and making another page of my comic.


Can't wait for tomorrow xxx
Can't wait until I have like a hundred entries and ppl are like wtf and don't know where to start lol

 

[LilyLaroux2000]

I could say a milion things. But I guess I will go with a memory :D

When I first started therapy like at 15 years old I told my therapist about how everyone and everything is boring. Just because everyone and everything is predictable. I told her how I could predict a lot and how I hated it.

No my life is nowhere near predictable, even most of my friends arent predictable. I still struggle with feeling like nothing will change but thats fir another time.

Hoewer I wanted to talk about that beacause I did NOT expectected/predicted that we would have a call!?!?!?! Like damnnn????? And it was nice and I even learned something??? And I was able to help you somewhat???
Like okay okay AMAZING YIPPEEEE
XD

 

[Chuuya-Chan ⋆. 𐙚˚]

Oh wow. You know I fee

I could say a milion things. But I guess I will go with a memory :D

When I first started therapy like at 15 years old I told my therapist about how everyone and everything is boring. Just because everyone and everything is predictable. I told her how I could predict a lot and how I hated it.

No my life is nowhere near predictable, even most of my friends arent predictable. I still struggle with feeling like nothing will change but thats fir another time.

Hoewer I wanted to talk about that beacause I did NOT expectected/predicted that we would have a call!?!?!?! Like damnnn????? And it was nice and I even learned something??? And I was able to help you somewhat???
Like okay okay AMAZING YIPPEEEE
XD

wow, I can relate! I feel like for the most part my days are benign and predictable, like a lot of peoples lives are just a continuation of the day before, just a cycle. It makes me wonder how anyone would be happy with something so boring.

I personally am looking for an answer for that, maybe we need to make the exciting things happen for ourselves? But yeah I wouldn't have predicted that I would have struggled yesterday and got on call with you