Chuuya-Chan ⋆. 𐙚˚
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- Oct 8, 2024
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Tired.
I know my last few posts have been kinda glum, don't get the wrong idea though, I'm still hopeful I swear!
I don't know what came over me this morning but I made an impulsive decision to have a conversation—-that very quickly turned into an argument right after I woke up.
I very desperately don't want to become a perpetual doormat so even though all my points didn't make sense I had that argument.
I basically told her to stop pretending to be nice to me to just yell at me the next moment.
Didn't end well.
But I definitely think I've learned something from this.
I definitely will try to be less impulsive in the future,(hopefully this will be the last argument I'll ever have with her) but mostly I learned that no matter how calm I could have approached this it would probably always turn into an argument with yelling.
This morning has left me drained. Today passed by quickly.
I haven't done any creative writing for a few days so I hope to pick that up tomorrow perhaps? But I did start working on a report and did some math.
I definitely popped back faster from this situation than I would have just a few years ago.
Today I really just wasn't feeling it after that. I had taken a walk around my neighborhood after the interaction and just wished the walk would never have to stop. I'm so tired. I just don't think I'm built for stress…
I played around with my magic eight ball
though and it said tomorrow WILL be better. I pray 
Wow…I've been posting a whole week?!
I know my last few posts have been kinda glum, don't get the wrong idea though, I'm still hopeful I swear!
I don't know what came over me this morning but I made an impulsive decision to have a conversation—-that very quickly turned into an argument right after I woke up.
I very desperately don't want to become a perpetual doormat so even though all my points didn't make sense I had that argument.
I basically told her to stop pretending to be nice to me to just yell at me the next moment.
Didn't end well.
But I definitely think I've learned something from this.
I definitely will try to be less impulsive in the future,(hopefully this will be the last argument I'll ever have with her) but mostly I learned that no matter how calm I could have approached this it would probably always turn into an argument with yelling.
This morning has left me drained. Today passed by quickly.
I haven't done any creative writing for a few days so I hope to pick that up tomorrow perhaps? But I did start working on a report and did some math.
I definitely popped back faster from this situation than I would have just a few years ago.
Today I really just wasn't feeling it after that. I had taken a walk around my neighborhood after the interaction and just wished the walk would never have to stop. I'm so tired. I just don't think I'm built for stress…
I played around with my magic eight ball
though and it said tomorrow WILL be better. I pray Wow…I've been posting a whole week?!
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