Yesterday I had posted my first live journal entry earlier in the day, but what I didn't get to mention is that I got to see my sister in the hospital later that evening.
It worries me because she's also pregnant and was on her way to getting sepsis but she will hopefully be released tomorrow. I'm excited to make her a welcome home meal of her favorite foods!
It's funny really…I want to do more kind things for people, even if it's small but if I notice others doing kind things before me I scramble to do the same or if I don't I wouldn't be as good of a person as they are, it's silly really.
Anyone is welcome to comment, I've always wanted to do online writing in one shape or form and this feels rather nice.
And speaking of writing I started rewriting the first draft of my story I'm working on and feel rather proud of myself!
Changing the subject, I was outside finishing a little drawing when I was talking to my counselor, and we had gotten on the subject Of struggles that people can go through, in which I usually think is pointless to think there's any reason why we suffer…
Yet I guess I've felt a little defeated, maybe I've had a change of heart since my counselor seems rather adamant that there's lessons to learn from everything we experience and I thought,
"I mean if we didn't even try to put some kind of meaning behind our suffering and such it would just mean that we're really all just randomly picked experiences, and our suffering is meaningless and has no meaning…and that sounds rather hopeless."
I often get angry over the things I've experienced in the past…if only I had known the outcome I would have veered out of the way on time… I think the main thing that helps me is to just not think about it.
Right now I'm getting ready to put in another 500 words, eat dinner, and than watch berserk with my boyfriend..
Today was good, I especially liked sleeping on my blanket under the sun today.
It worries me because she's also pregnant and was on her way to getting sepsis but she will hopefully be released tomorrow. I'm excited to make her a welcome home meal of her favorite foods!
It's funny really…I want to do more kind things for people, even if it's small but if I notice others doing kind things before me I scramble to do the same or if I don't I wouldn't be as good of a person as they are, it's silly really.
Anyone is welcome to comment, I've always wanted to do online writing in one shape or form and this feels rather nice.
And speaking of writing I started rewriting the first draft of my story I'm working on and feel rather proud of myself!
Changing the subject, I was outside finishing a little drawing when I was talking to my counselor, and we had gotten on the subject Of struggles that people can go through, in which I usually think is pointless to think there's any reason why we suffer…
Yet I guess I've felt a little defeated, maybe I've had a change of heart since my counselor seems rather adamant that there's lessons to learn from everything we experience and I thought,
"I mean if we didn't even try to put some kind of meaning behind our suffering and such it would just mean that we're really all just randomly picked experiences, and our suffering is meaningless and has no meaning…and that sounds rather hopeless."
I often get angry over the things I've experienced in the past…if only I had known the outcome I would have veered out of the way on time… I think the main thing that helps me is to just not think about it.
Right now I'm getting ready to put in another 500 words, eat dinner, and than watch berserk with my boyfriend..
Today was good, I especially liked sleeping on my blanket under the sun today.
